23/09/2022
Check out these numbers!!!
SEPTEMBER 22
22+9=31
2+2+9 =13
1+3=4
3+1=4
2+2+7+1+9+6+4 =31
(the numbers of my Birthday added up together)
3+1=4
The numbers - 2 and 4 and 7 and 8 and 11 and 22 and 33 and 44 and 55 - are all special numbers to me, but when you add 5 and 8 together it equals the number 13 and 1+3= 4...
My lucky number -(and in numerology) - is (you guessed it ) - 4
I first decided number 4 was my lucky because it was the first time I ever won anything. Number 4 was printed on my raffle ticket. I think I was in third class; maybe 8 years of age...
3+8 =11 and
11 + 4 =15 and 5 - 1 = 4 hahaha ...
It may be time now to go in reverse and see where the numbers and our inner kids of 8 or younger; can take us.
Does any of this matter one bit to you or to anyone else but me?
Who knows?
But it's interesting to play with numbers in this way and give them meanings that we want to give to them - No?
What are your thoughts?
I turned 58 this year and I must say, my universe appears to have shifted as I've gotten more and more familiar with the children I'm now surrounded by in my work. Yes of course they reflect the kids in me. They say our 'mirror neurons' are the cause of this phenomenon.
These kids I take care of and teach, are so young and so very very precious. They've taught me some powerful lessons too, about life and about the nature of our inner children. Yes - these kids are often sneaky, and cheeky and delicate, with big fat emotions so difficult to contain, and laughter that is so very infectious.
I promised to explain the following ideas - but - I'm not sure I actually can do them any justice... I've been guided to smoosh them together in a free-flow of writing that looks nothing like what I intended to write last night - or yesterday - or early this morning. Perhaps I'll revisit them when I get inspired to deal with each theme - one at a time. Today I'll just let the writing flow freely through me... see how that goes.
(Now... some of the themes below were not mentioned directly in this post, for example - 'Slow is the new fast' I've decided that this is my new world order. There is a lot to say about this, but if we don't slow down enough to smell that 'rose' - we lose the sweetness of the moments it gives us and all the benefits rose essence offers to the senses and to our health. The fragrance of a rose has profound healing properties we miss out on when we rush by without noticing it. Same goes for almost every other area of life - even the painful moments that we try to escape from. It heals us to move slowly with ourselves, with our kids, and with our work, so that work feels like play instead. Moving slowly with the most important things in life isn't a waste of time - in fact time itself feels stretched. We miss so much when we move too fast.
Kids have the knack of teaching us - (or forcing us) - to stop and pay attention, especially when we think life is all about getting 'important things done'. The kids in us, and all around us, the outer little children and the kids inside all the adults we see around us... need our time... They will not let us get away with ignoring them without consequences).
1. SLOW IS THE NEW FAST
2. WORK IS A HEALTH HAZARD - UNLESS IT'S FUN
3. SLUGS AND BEES 'R' US
4.THERE IS NO LIGHT AT THE END OF TUNNEL VISION
5.TAKING BACKWARDS STEPS TAKES US BACK HOME FAST
6. HUNGRY CATERPILLARS CAN BECOME FULL-FILLED BUTTERFLIES
7. LIFE SUFFERED DEFAMATION WITHOUT BEING FAMOUS
The number 7 is meant to be a special number throughout human history and it suggests -'sacred - 'important'- woo-woo' kinds of things.
Who knows - Maybe it does and maybe it doesn't.
Maybe 7 isn't magical at all ... but the kid in me likes to think it is.
Who can really prove that numbers count for anything?
Mathematicians would say - It's all about the numbers. Statisticians would agree - except in the case of numerology, astrology and other woo-woo things, that types like me like to keep account of.
Certain things about numbers however; cannot be explained.
Why Christ was the thirteenth member of his dream team surrounded by his 12 apostles, symbolising time.
Christ Himself symbolises - the Sacred Heart of Love and its Sacred Feminine energy.
The force of love stabilise time and space and is that creative intelligence so beyond our human mind's grasp.
The number 13 is - odd - but 1 and 3 adds up to the 4 refering to points of the compass, the 4 seasons, up and down and left and right. The number 7 is linked to the healing wheel from indigenous teachings - left, right, back, front, above, below, and inside. The Divine Feminine Force is associated with the number 13 - this Love that is the connective tissue of the universe. Love is God, Christ ,Holy Spirit - neither male nor female - neither odd nor even and it makes no sense to the logical brain but makes perfect sense to the Spirit of Life Itself.
Life is Inclusive. Diverse. Unpredictable. Always growing and becoming ever more complex, yet perfectly stable and in perfect harmony with its ever diversifying self.
This alive Universe is not a mess even if Chaos exists in it.
It's a living breathing thing - just like us - only somewhat BIGGER
We are less than a speck in it... yet full of its explosive power.
God Is - Love Is - Life Is - undefined and undefinable by us.
How crazy-making is this? Have you ever watched two loving, well intentioned, intelligent, resourceful parents not know what to do with their misbehaving infant or small child? That child possesses immense power and quickly learns now to harness it.
Funny huh?! Not so for the parent!
I was one of these parents once!!
Back to the numbers and how they fit into the above themes... Numbers need not mean anything - until they come to mean something to us individually or as a collective. We invented time and use it to control our lives and define past present and future. If past, present and future are all happening at once, and time really is illusory; and we're certainly in a confused mess at present... or are we?
Some say we can change the past and thus change our future by re-contextualising our past and re-framing past events mentally - perhaps in kinder, more mature ways that are closer to what actually happened, and why. A child sees and interprets events with the eyes of a child and this child still influences our perspective as adults.
Childhood stories get trapped in our heads, and take on a life of their own. We make them up to a large extent, then believe them to be true for a lifetime until we examine them from a clearer more mature view. What a pity. If only we knew we could script a happier story for ourselves and our loved ones than the one our scared little inner kids made up.
Oh well!
Some suggest we get to do life over and over again until we finally grow out of the immature stories we play on repeat - like kids who love to hear their favourite fairy tales again and again and again. Sometimes these stories are scary - and sometimes they're so sad and very dramatic. If you believe in the story of reincarnation you'd better get to writing a better story - fast.
Maybe believing in heaven and hell is less threatening.
We can even choose what we believe to be real in this lifetime... and it really does becomes reality for us.
Isn't THAT clever!!! Are we not incredibly powerful - like Gods on Earth!?! Only problem is - we often work against our own health, wealth, happiness and wellbeing. Oh well. There's always the story of the next life... or heaven... or hell... or pergatory... or a sea of virgins to... get to know when you're no longer in a body that cares.
This reverse engineering idea gives a new meaning to "Kinder Surprise" It may be the sweetest offering our inner children can give to us, to finally free us of their stories so we can be happy now, and settle into our own inner parent's loving arms.
If we believe we are still run by our hurt inner children (and psychology suggests we indeed are) then there is a part of us that is 'all grown up' too and able to take care of them - perhaps even better than our biological parents could.
However, we get stuck in times past, and blend with our wounded children. These wounds fester until we reach back to that place and say... it time to heal sweet pea... there's no boogie man or woman) who can hurt us now. Chances are the boogie men and women were scared inner kids too - who misbehaved because they were so scared-to-death of this life.
Even though this is not the post I planned to write today; I'm allowing whatever it is to be. It was meant to be writing full of polished wisdom that could become chapters in a book on these topics... Some day... maybe... life will allow that.
However - Methinks - life has many more curvey twists and turns on my journey with it. If life for me - is a game of snakes and ladders then - so be it.
But I suspect life is nothing like what we define life as. Its infamous cruelty may be our little child's frightening projections. Maybe life loves us beyond our most crazy childhood fantasies... Maybe it's mission is to help us in every way to come home to ourselves and into its loving arms .
What do you think?
Until next month...
Love Always.