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Last one for tonight. One that I'm sure all teachers can relate to... mental exhaustion.
17 March 2011
11.03pm
Mental Exhaustion
Tonight I am too tired to handwrite my reflection. I don’t have to write a reflection but I want to. Even though I am physically and mentally exhausted, I am on autopilot because I am excited about the road ahead. It’s a road towards improving outcomes for my students and it’s a road I am glad to be travelling.
Why am I on this road? I think I have my Year 11s to thank for inspiring me to take this path. You see, at the moment we are studying Personal Reflective writing. It’s because of this that I have ‘googled’ information this week on “Reflective Writing” and found that reflection often springs from a critical event. Not only that but after reflecting on the critical event, the subject finds themselves changing their life, their way of thinking or their way of responding to issues.
So, having digested this knowledge, I found myself reflecting at home about how I could improve my Year 10s and Year 9s futures, with Senior English in mind. I wrote a reflection of the main behaviour/work ethic/housekeeping problems with my Year 10s because how can I expect to teach them to learn unless they are listening to me. Then I wrote a solution to each problem and today I went into the class so much clearer about what I need to do. I spoke to my class firmly but gently. I often find it a difficult balance between discipline and a good relationship with my students. I’ve decided that I will speak to my students no more harshly than I would speak to my own children,
Anyway, the whole gist of what I’m trying to say is that I reflected, I changed what I was doing in the classroom, and it worked. Or as the saying goes, I came, I saw, I conquered. I came home, I reflected, I conquered the problems. For today, that is!
When I am inspired, when I am not exhausted, when I am emotionally engaged, I write far more effectively than when I am tired with too much to do. Could it be that students write more effectively when they are inspired, when they are not exhausted, and most especially, when they are emotionally engaged?
Kettle’s boiled!!!
One more thought though – it seems that when I am inspired, when I am emotionally engaged, I prefer to write by hand, with a personal touch. When I am tired or feel like it’s ‘work’, I prefer to get it over and done with on my laptop. Interesting.