She Creates Her Self

Written for those who ache for a union beyond earthly reason encoded by Heaven...
To heal what has been deeply hurt
To make hallow what has become hollow
Our relationship with God and each other
Only a force greater more magical than anything ever created or existed
Can heal this separation from Source
A force unleashed in a uniting so quantum
We can only call this GodLove
Sacred Union is the potion to set the field free
It is the beginning of no return
as we find our way back to Loving God and each other ..

These are words that hold a sacred ache in my woman's heart, is it story or myth or revelation that touches me so deeply, that such love can heal all of existence. You decide what's true for you..

THE TIME TO FORGET ..

As they gazed deep into the eternity of each others love
Its Time She said
I Know He answered,
This that we are, they need to Remember
They are This Too,
The Great Slumber has served Its Self
Its Time for them to awaken now.
The time of their Great Awakening
They Silently expressed what words would never be able to,
What they were to each other
It was time to go into the field of forgetfulness..
I will forget you for a time She said with an ache so deep
the portal was cracked open
I will never forget for both of us He answered,
As we move through this earthly journey,
as we Remember so begins their awakening ..
When you begin to remember US He whispered
They will fight to keep you in forgetfulness..
Knowing what was Her path was so piercing it took His breathe away
And the portal expanded ..
I Know the Field will soften even if I remember for a second She whispered back
The sacred ache encoded into My heart,
will allow me no respite in this Slumber
He sighed as He felt the pull of Divine timing to enter a realm where all connection to Heart had been forgotten.
They silently scream to remember, we cannot ignore them He said
I Know She silently expresses so I choose this excruciating separation
Because of US I can almost bear it,
To assist in the rebirth of their Light that longs to remember
Its Time He silently reflects from His Soul to Hers
I Know She slowly reflects to His
They begin to slowly dissolve into the forgetful dream
He watches, fiercefully holding on to her Radiance,
each second rendered holier than the next
as She Dissolves before His gaze
She locks her gaze with His, with such deep aching devotion it almost pulls Him back
As He feels the devastating Loss of separation as Source from Source
His vision engulfed in the radiance of their Loves Light
So gloriously shattered into such beauty of Light they were
So blinding breathtaking and beautifully brutal
He feels something more powerful, beyond sacred, than anything that has ever existed
as He witnessed them both disappearing
A shimmer of the Truth softly falls across their passing..
In Truth The Light is never forgotten
We will remember He dreams to Her
As the portal furls into itself
I Know is Her last fleeting memory..

...... IT IS TIME TO REMEMBER

The Dream is slipping from the dreamer
Slumbers hold is no more,
Memories long hidden flow through the softening veil
Not so much memory but frequency encoded with union
Feelings stirring within the Ones who came to set the Slumber free
She Knows, Her ache suddenly feels as the holy elixir it always was
His ache hidden in His Seeking, always Knew what for
Both tending to the rupture that was chosen
Both allowing the ache to be the sacred code that will lead them back to the Rapture
But first the repair of the rupture within each
In the Reunification is their Remembrance
The field of forgetfulness is forever shattered and this shattering will reverberate through time
In its own time
Until All Remember..
That Love IS ALL THEY EVER Were.
That which they were seeking was always hidden in plain sight
LOVE IS THE ONLY FREQUENCY THAT RESURRECTS THE TRUTH -
TO THE SOURCE WE WILL ALWAYS RETURN..
Sacred Union is prophecy
Thy Will Is Done
IT IS TIME….

~ Gillian Scott

AN ODE TO LOVE

Come my love

Shine into my darkness so I may drown

In the divine waters flooding me from your pe*******on

Come my Love

I open to your Light encoded

Revealed I am as never Before

Come my love

Let me know no bounds to my sacred overflowing.

For I am contained in the Presence of your Clarity

found within the sword of your Noble Knowing

Come my love

I am devoted to the one Beloved

nameless faceless

In you I find Him and am deeply surrendered,

and simultaneously opened, I become a fountain

whose waters always flow back to the alter of Love

Come my love

Water and White Fire

Love lit up from for each to be Known in the Truth of Love

There is no point where either begins or ends

In Him I am reflected as IAm known to God

In this Knowing He feels the infinite of God for himself

In Union we are torched by Love in Eternity

Come my Love

Surrendered Opened Radiant IAm

Presence Stability Empowered You hold

Come my love

Lets breath until we become breathe itself

And live again

to Become Love

~ Gillian Scott

THE SACRED PAUSE

Sacred Pause is where the alchemy happens.. It is alchemy there is nothing you can do, alchemy happens, you can't make it happen. You, you can cultivate the Sacred within you to allow for the alchemy, but you do no thing

Yes there are those that manipulate and force the field to bend to their will, and it will.. But the law of the quantum IS ABSOLUTE .. you are never free of the energetic consequences of your actions.. NEVER.. We are living in a time that most are still numbed out, that's okay, because the quantum field, call it magic call it Love, always returns to itself, expanded evolved, but always returns to its natural state magic love..

So bend, force, manipulate if that is your desire, no judgement here, you will live the life you deserve to receive, your life will teach you.. I don't need to..

For those who desire another way, because they just do, because the world of pain and suffering offends then so deeply they have no choice but to turn away and find a truer path, a more peace filled path their souls are more attuned to..

We go deep into the mind, mining all that needs to be recovered until there is no thing left, except what has always been, The Sacred, The field of Alchemy, where thought now, aligned with the field of peace and truth, activates the field from love.. Alchemy happens, and the thought that lead, the lead if you will, does not become gold, it becomes the Light.. and the light turns everything into God.

Choose wisely, but know you are choosing, face what must be faced and continue choosing.. Until you find yourself in the sacred until you find your self.. Sacred.. Pause and marvel as you watch the magic that has always been, as you become all that is Truth, as we walk in this world as Peace, for the way to open for others..

~ Gillian Scott

There is another version of me...
That took the road most Travelled..
I see her now, living the life she wanted
Married with those three beautiful boys, having the family she always needed, being the woman she always wanted to be as mother, wife, friend, daughter.. It's a beautiful Life
Yes, I sip my coffee and she sips hers and we look at each other across timelines between our worlds..
She looks back at me and sees ..
There is a version of me, brave, curious, adventurous and full of fiery Truth, and she took the road most won't travel
Not knowing where it leads but intrinsically knowing there are experiences she deeply needs that no one can give her,
That life was harder than she thought it would be
But always, in the perfection of Life's ineffable Benevolence,
it was on this path she found what she did not know she was looking for..
Her Sacred Truth, her Whole Self, Her reason for Being..
We smile, we reach out to the other self
She fades away before we can touch
I sit here now, alone in the coffee shop as life continues all around
The other version of me living another life, and me sitting in this one, innately I know what a healing gift I received..
I am So full of peace..
Knowing all roads lead home to the Truth of what wanted to be lived all along..
Love, it is always about Love
As I rise I feel her with me, and I know she feels me too
I am right where I need to be
To live the life that I choose..
So I walk out the door and into the life that is waiting to be lived,
full of all I have yet to experience, a new Love in the form of my King, a place in the world for my hearts medicine, a book to be written, a home to be shared,
an evolved dream that is full of so much my heart cannot contain its joy and my cup runneth over
all this waiting for me
The only difference is...
I not only believe in it..
I am finally ready to receive it

I have learnt to contract too much

in the years lived

Always In the hope of being received

Continual contraction became an automated response

So much so

That I became a prisoner to my own contraction

So small others would be okay with me

Censoring my Truth so as to avoid emotional abandonment and connection that was not there in Truth

But these years have not been kind in the way I understood kindness to be

They have been kind in the way only Truth ever will be

Stripping from me the ropes I had bound myself with

Burning me raw in the places I held so tightly to..

In the burning I felt the raw naked honesty that only searing pain can bring.

To be present with what is happening within

No where to go nowhere to hide

Every rope ripped from my hands

Every raw open wound

Bringing me back to discover the Truth that would ultimately always set me free

Letting go of the beliefs that kept me small so that I was at the very least, palatable for others

Let them taste my True grit

My hunger screams

Let them spit you out because they are not ready to taste their own Truth..

Then leave them where they left you..

Love them in ways they cannot love you as they have yet to love themselves

But my God and Gaia and all that is Holy in my being

Learn the highest lesson this burning is searing into your Soul..

Set yourself free as ONLY TRUTH can do..

As ONLY the Light will reveal.

See yourself

ALL OF YOURSELF

For in the full acceptance of your Holy Darkness and Hallowed Divinity

Can you live as HUMAN divine.

In the world but not of it..

Because you know what you are..

You belong to The Everything

This awakening is not the so called Woke.

This is conscious death of an energy system.. the false matrix

An alchemising within to awaken

To the rebirthing of your new earth consciousness

Our birthright,

To Live as The Love Within All

Ah-men

My Truth is My love Internally Sourced
It is my purest essence from the centre of my centre
So much courage is asked of me
The kind of which the sacred stories tell
But it was in my healing
That Life in Her sacred benevolence was honing and waking up, the gladiator spirit that was required for this journey
For me to journey back in to my innate connection to Source
I had never understood why speaking my true has always created such disconnection in all around me, because of this I see now how I subtly I began to morph my self and project the image of what was required of me so that I could feel, to some degree, just a little connection to others.
I wrote this piece because I had lived too long, the pain of pretending for love, for connection, and even now I continue to gently fold back the layers that still want to close, I sweetly hum my heart open and remind her we are held in the protection of Father Sky and we open always to the Truth, for the Truth and nothing but the Truth
I have honed to this point now, where my body feels it, it has no words, it is beyond words, it is a resonance with the harmonies that are the field of my Life, and I feel it move in my body, and it activates the protection and the strength of the gladiator and I become still, and oh honey, there is no little me here, there is only Sacred Truth and I am the hollow bone with which She Moves. I will leave this here and share more as I am moved to..
May you find some resonance in my words, as you continue on your journey of seeking the Truth that will set you free and evolve your consciousness as Thy Will Decree…

I have learnt to contract too much
in the years lived
Always In the hope of being received
Continual contraction became an automated response
So much so
That I became a prisonor to my own contraction
So small others would be okay with me
Censoring my Truth so as to avoid emotional abandonment and connection that was not there in Truth
But these years have not been kind in the way I understood kindness to be
They have been kind in the way only Truth ever will be
Stripping from me the ropes I had bound myself with
Burning me raw in the places I held so tightly to..
In the burning I felt the raw naked honesty that only searing pain can bring.
To be present with what is happening within
No where to go nowhere to hide
Every rope ripped from my hands
Every raw open wound
Bringing me back to discover the Truth that would ultimately always set me free
Letting go of the beliefs that kept me small so that I was at the very least, palatable for others
Let them taste my true grit
My hunger screamed
Let them spit you out because they are not ready to taste their own Truth..
Then leave them where they left you..
Love them in ways they cannot love you as they have yet to love themselves
But my God and Gaia and all that is holy
Learn the highest lesson this burning is searing into your Soul..
Set yourself free as ONLY TRUTH can do..
As ONLY the Light will reveal.
See yourself
ALL OF YOURSELF
For in the full acceptance of your Holy Darkness and Hallowed Divinity
Can you live as HUMAN divine.
In the world but not of it..
Because you know what you are..
You belong to The Everything
This awakening is not the so called Woke.
This is conscious death of an energy system.. the false matrix
An alchemising within to awaken
To the rebirthing of your new earth consciousness
Our birthright,
To Live as The Love Within All
Ah-men

LET YOURSELF SOFTEN

Let Life back in to your Body
Let Her in to you
Let Life spring from within your Being
Let go of your mind
Let go of the How
Let yourself learn to get Still
Let stillness be your effort
Let stillness open you
Let yourself be opened without thought
Let thought be the distractor for now
Let stillness be your vision for now
Let yourself FEEL it all
Let yourself weep
Let yourself laugh
Let yourself be afraid
Let yourself feel what you have suppressed
Let your emotions flood through your body
Let them flow
Let yourself in the aftermath be tender
Let the tenderness open your heart
Let your heart breathe
Let the breath expand into the space that has been cleansed
Let yourself fill up with what arises from deep within you
Let Your Life Force flow
Let You Life's Longings free
Let your Sacred Longings be made real
Let your reality be a reflection of the Highest Truth from your heart..
Let the Sacred Story be lived through you
Let go of the doing and forcing your story on Life's Divine unfolding for you
Let your story be one of Love, of Adventures that will fill you with joy beyond attachment
Let Your Life Lead
Let go of control stemming from past experienced fears
Let it all be left here now
Let there be space only for a life that reflects your vision of Peaceful Fulfillment
Let yourself Be Happiness personified
Let your happiness be attached to no thing outside of you
Let who you are Be The Source of your Joy
Let everything you think you need to be, get, do GO
Let Go when you find the courage inspite of the fear still there
Let go without knowing what's next
Letting go will reveal the Highest Next Best thing for you to
Let Your Glorious Life In
Let these words sink into your soul
Let your Souls Light Lead
Let Love Peace Truth Abundance and Grace guide your thoughts words and actions
Let your self Be Free so that you can
Let yourself Live in this world as you are In Truth
Let Heaven return to earth through you
Let your self rest in God and leave the rest to God
Let Him be the source of your provision your safety and protection.
Let everything else be for now
Let Your Light inspire you to be the Loving Being you came here to Be
Let's remember LOVE in its purest form
Let's remember WE ARE THAT
Let's remember that LOVE is the alchemist to everything, and if it's not alchemising, it not Pure Love
Let's Love ourselves back
Let the POWER OF LOVE flow into every impossible situation
Let Love Be the Revolution for transformation we all desire
Let everything else that is NOT based in Pure Love go
Let's Live Free
Let's allow our Holy Life to lead us
Let's never again forget who we are
Let me leave you with this

YOU ARE ALL YOU NEED AND WHEN YOU REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE, YOU BEYOND THIS HUMAN REALM OF THE LOST LIGHT, YOU ARE THE POWER OF THE UNIVERSE EXPERIENCING ITSELF AS YOU AND RETURNING TO LOVE IS THE ONLY WAY TO SET YOURSELF FREE FROM THE ILLUSION THAT YOU ARE ANYTHING ELSE

Ah-men 🙏

YOU ARE SO FULL OF LOVE

Standing in the voting queue for 4 HOURS yesterday, I connected with a kindred spirit on this journey I call my Life. An artist, also at a place redefining himself in his creative expression - or more clearly - going back to what he loves but with more of himself here now. There was much resonance between us as we continued to share, Two strangers such different lives yet connected through a random event but our hearts open and drawn to each other, sacredly and simply talking, sharing, listening and receiving and giving to what wanted to be expressed and witnessed.

By the time I got to vote and we met on the other side, we were no longer strangers, the warmth we both felt expressed in a hug as we said our good byes. I will look out for his art and he will look out for my book. These were the words he said to me that bring me to such holy tears and prompted the words share here.

"Thank you Gillian for sharing your self with me today, YOU ARE SO FULL OF LOVE." It is the highest affirmation anyone has ever offered me, more importantly, I felt the Truth of his words..

Everything that has happened from womb to time and space here now, has been to reveal my Self to me, to peel back the layers that have made me believe I am not worthy of love until I have earned it. To hear these words of Grace from a stranger, ney soul friend, YOU ARE SO FULL OF LOVE, to KNOW in that moment IAM. To feel the beauty of the struggle of trying to find my self in others, in the world. I have been here all along, the love that the world has not shown me these last 8 months, has been to strip away further, the armor that still prevented me from seeing my self in Truth. I am by no means saying I am perfect, my God, I am saying I AM FULL OF LOVE ..

I always have been, there is no thing to prove anymore, to anyone especially my self.
I have lost contact with so many I care for, feeling bad because I did not have the energy to connect, and having to choose myself, really choose myself and continue to learn to allow the disappoint I fear I cause in others, to move through me without judgement.

In doing so I realise how little Grace people give me but how much I give them. I am still learning with gentle love and self compassion that it's okay to say No to what is hurting me, to give that Grace to myself first and to choose what's good for my Spirit. It certainly is a balancing act that I am adjusting to. It may never heal completely but going through these 8 months of such pain of not choosing me first AGAIN, I step forward with the strength that comes when I am choosing me, no matter how uncomfortable it may feel. I will endeavor from here onwards to move from the fullness of love that IAm as often as possible. That means I may disappoint. But I am choosing from so much LOVE within. My desire for Truth continues relentlessly, its what drives me through everything and allows me to meet myself more than ever with love, kindness, passion and strength I never dreamed I had. There is no other way for me to live, no other way than by facing what needs to be faced within, to live in Truth as it continues to set me free from fear. But also to LIVE in JOY that I never believed was possible for my unless it was earned..

The words below are from a poem I wrote years ago, and they represent the Dark night of my Soul that has been 15 years. Yes, finally I am The Light of my Life, finally with reverence and such joy, I can feel the Blessed Truth, I AM SO FULL OF LOVE.

🙏🙏🙏

Seer of Shadows
Moves in the darkness
Cloaked in the blackness of sacred.. velvet.. magic
Holding the light always that forever dwells within all
Unseen.. sensed
the dark beauty of being birthed in the sacred shadows illumined
resurrected
the shadows..
Reborn
The shadow ..
The shadow..
Revealer of Truth
in the underworld is the gift of Revelation
Seer of Shadow
see your shadow as the holy Grace it is
There is no place thy Sacred is not
Accepting this
From the shadow,
Sensed in the Shadow
Your revelation
Your resurrection
Your unveiling
Your Sacred
Your True
Surrendered to the magic of its darkness
Revealed
Always
Is Your Light

~ Gillian Scott ©

THE BIRTH OF A NEW LOVE STORY

Death and rebirth I am beginning to understand
Feel exactly the same but at the highest echelon of Truth are alchemically different..
One is for your transformation
The other transcendence
. into your souls Light
This awareness has subtly shifted my perception to allow space for this knowing to Be..
I am rebirthing and it is as messy as my death.
Moving through the ecosystem of an old mind
All feels familiar
Because it is..
It's me moving through the remnants of the aftermath of my deconstruction..
I was here before
Yes
This feels like who I was
Yes
I definitely 100percently do not like this version of me
Yes
I feel like I don't belong here
Yes
All these old patterns are so painful and constricting
Yes
"why am I here again, have I not received The Wisdom from The Work.."
. is my silent cry to God..
and it's God The Mothers voice-less voice I heed as it's The Mother I need..
. Radiant light of the Beloved's Love,
You are moving through the sacred compost of what has been your death
But is also the fertilizer for your rebirth.
That which has burned you is as necessary as that which is birthing you.
Feel it all..
"how do I do that, it all feels too much.."
. Darling of Loves Light
You feel it all with no more story
You feel it all by giving yourself
Peace from mind...
Here, as you find yourself in this moment in the ashes of all the ancient stories you ever lived, Be In the Knowing it has all been burned in the fires of Grace..
This is the most sacred place for your Love Story,
as prophesied by the greatest author of all existence..
The Light Of The Greatest Love has decreed
Here in the aftermath of your death is your resurrection
Here your Love Story is birthed
Here you live again as you came to Love
Be here now
Feel it all
Peace from mind
It will be so
Our greatest love story not yet told.
Our greatest love story through us unfolds..
Can you feel it..
So it is
Ah-men

I love clever minds that are kind
The world is mostly clever minds who are cruel
Most get pretty much offended by anything these days
It tells me one thing
Those minds are deeply offended by their own lack of deep alignment to Truth
You will always get offended and defensive by another's truth
If you have not fully intergrated in your own sense of self
If you do know who you are
You will fight to the death with savage aurgumentitive cruelty, and fight another to approve and accept you
Because IN Truth
Only a person who is at peace with themselves can be at peace with others
No matter if another agrees with them or not.
I love kind people
Because kind people are conscious of their connection to the ALL of life, they are the most courageous
Because you need to have much courage to hold your tongue in the face of much ridiculousness than comes from unconscious unhealed trauma
One has to be absolutely deeply rooted in Love, in the power that IS the very fabric of LIFE itself
Love of self, love of Creator
love and respect for another's right to BE
This does not mean the call to boundaries is lost
It simply means there is no point to argue with anothers anger and self loathing,
Because those are the ones too weakened within, with no moral muscle that has been strengthened to be the compass by which they follow the Light within..
Their guide is just sheer anger and pain,
and need create chaos for their own unhealed trauma to thrive
Yes, I love kind people
Because we are healing the world,
One act of kindness at a time..
Ah-men

If you are not rooted in the Truth of your own beingness
Another's doubt will shake you
Will cause you to doubt yourself..
Inner exploration and questioning what arises within when triggered by another,
Is always my go to practice
It supports my deep desire to live as open as I can Be, with all that IS showing up in my Life.
To not be so absolute to believe that I know everything there is to know about 'ME'
I have lived the pain of that,
The isolation, that separates me not only from connection with others
But more importantly from deep intimate connection with me Self,
With Creator,
My Source of all my Wisdom, Magic and Truth
So I choose to live in expansion
With an open heart
Trusting in Her Strength
Her Wisdom
Her Knowing
Trusting that I am always traveling with the Light
ALWAYS
So my practice is coming back to the Light within
That enlivens the soft animal of my body,
That enlightens ALL LIFE
I come back to what is true for me
And allow this Light to pe*****te all of my doubt,
so that I may be clear within my Heart
Not so as to appease another's doubt for my journey..
As My journey belongs to Me and God
Their doubt is, with without a doubt, a holy call to go into the Light too
But that is their choice to make.
But I no longer answer to the doubt in another
As I have claimed my inner world
And I, I alone
Sit on the thrown of my Life
and bless all of Life that shows up
For always it leads me back to the Peace within, that surpasses all human understanding,
The Peace that is True Love
Pure Love
And what I am here to experience in all ways
So I bless even the doubt of another for they have shown up to show again and again and again..
IAm the Light within
~ Gillian Scott

PHOTO: Richard Lee Ellsmore, beloved man

The beauty of the poem "You are oceanic" by Tapiwa Mugabe, inpsired such love and beauty in me I needed to write these words..

Deep in the intimacy of my being, where I have been learning to reside, and return to my saced innocence. Understanding with more tenderness the sacred silent prayer, that has lived in my heart since its first beating into this Life, the Truth which flowed in my body temple at my first breath and every breath since. An ancient rhythym endlessly pulsating through me, ebbing and flowing as waves of the ocean, of which I cannot live without.

I cannot live without my breath without my Truth
I am no longer me without the Sacred within me
The vastness of this drowns all thought and I am swept away deeper into this Knowing flowing in my being
"Not worthy" no longer holds back the Tsunami of Truth from the emotional waves of this revelation
I am momentarily drowned in a blissful forgetfulness of such Light,
I am blinded to all else but this intimacy with my self and the Sacred
I am closer than I will ever be with another,
in this sacred union
Because I am closer than the breath that breathes me
We are One, as the waves cannot be separate from the ocean

Yes, my time in the deep waters of my healing has brought me back home to the temple of Truth that I am.
Brought me back to my own rhythym, in harmony with Life
I was never lost simply drowning in all that was not the truth of me
but in the vastness of my being
I Am recovered, a drowning woman who has found her way back on to the shore of her soul
I breathe in the Life I am
and with each ebb and flow
I am enlivened by Truth
once again my heart beats as though for the first time
As I move now as One in this world,
with all of Life..

~ Gillian

~ You are Oceanic, Tapiwa Mugabe

"All she wanted
was to find a place to stretch her bones
A place to lengthen her smiles
and spread her hair
A place where her legs could walk
without cutting or bruising
A place unchained
She was born out of ocean breath.
I reminded her;
‘Stop pouring so much of yourself
into hearts that have no room for themselves
Do not thin yourself
Be vast
You do not bring the ocean to a river.'"