Love And Pain Made Me A Poet

15/08/2023

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05/08/2023

05/10/2021

Don’t blame me if I walk away
Blame your words, blame your heart
Don’t blame me if you see me with her
You made me realise that she cares
She is always there when I need a hand to pick me up
Go on and put that make-up
Trying to hide our true story
But don’t accuse her of stealing your glory
Blame your words, blame your heart

05/10/2021

Play your part
We can stay afloat
Like the stars in the sky
We can share smiles like a toddler
Only if you don’t give me a cold a shoulder
We can play together like pigs in the mud
But only if you don’t get me mad
Yes, play your part
I won’t break your heart
I will hold you tight even if we fight
I will go to the battlefield and fight
To ensure that nothing comes between us
To put into shame those that are jealous of us
Play your part I will play my part

04/10/2021

Every day I listen to music
Singing along songs
Songs that you will never listen
Songs we never sang together
I even write letters
Letters that you will never read
I’m busy watering a dead flower
Sometimes I don’t take a shower
Busy writing poems and letters
I wonder what made you grow feathers
I ponder my mind I don’t find answers
Then I dance to ease the pain
I imagine you smiling and clapping
When I stop, I see you crying
I miss you, love you ❤❤

04/10/2021

I will still sing that song
That song we sang for me
When my heart was troubled
I will still pray that prayer
The prayer we prayed together
And I will still paint the picture
The picture of you and me
I will still eye, eye what I once saw in you
I will still write poems
Poems of love for you
And I will still say, say that a day without thinking about you is not meaningful.
I will still say that you are beautiful
Even if you have scars on your face
I will still walk the empty streets at night
To hear you speak in my mind
I miss you, love you❤❤

02/10/2021

Loving you

Look at me
Look what you have created
Look at the things I do
Would you still call me your boo
I doubt,
I thought one day you would be proud
I did everything to prove my love to you
But I ended up in a cage of shame
That forced me to become the person I am
They stare at me and say I am not the same
As if a door of grace shut before my face
Look at me, would you believe that loving you brought me to this place

02/10/2021

I thought writing about my feelings would free me from her presence
But I continued to love her more in silence
Look at me, and look what you have done
Why do we choose to love when what we love is gone
It’s like I decided to dance when the drum is silent
Maybe I waited for a long time because I expected everything to be perfect
Now I learned my lesson that life is not a movie
No cut, no edits, no rehearsal

29/09/2021

Dear son, you will no longer visit me in this place.

You will no longer visit me in this place
Because I can see it causes you pain
Time will come, and you will accept the truth as I have accepted

Yes, son, you will no longer come to visit me in this place
I know you hated the smell of this place
The sound of machines and people groaning with pain
The white walls and people's faces with lack of hope

Sometimes you couldn't look at my face twice
To spare me from comforting lies
In heart, you wished you could find me looking better
So that we can walk off this place together
To go to church and shopping together

Son, I know you had big dreams about our lives,
I am sorry that I won't be part of everything that you will achieve
Sorry I won’t be there to encourage you in everything you believe
Like the type of wife, you will marry
Or to hear your kids shout grandma

Son, I also know you would yell to God all night
Asking Him why all things are going south
Son seeing me in this place wounded your heart
And you would tell me lies, telling me things will be alright
You prayed all night, and God told you we shouldn't give up the fight
Trying to hide the pain in your eyes while sitting by my bedside

Son, I apologise for the person you became because of this place
Son, be glad that you will stop coming to this place
and all the lies you would say before my face
the prayers you were praying
And the things you were doing to mend your broken heart.

You will bury all the prayers with me
You stop wounding your heart with hope
And all the wishes you wished that were not coming true
You will search within your heart to feel the comfort of my love
And you will face the wall to talk to me
Like I am your angel

Son am truly sorry
I know this situation will be difficult for you to accept
But time will come to accept the truth that I have accepted
That I am going to die, and you will all be alone
And you will stop visiting this place

29/09/2021

I had to say Goodbye

I had to say goodbye
I was tired of living a lie
Pretending as everything is fine
While it’s obvious someone was going to die
We were both tired, and we didn't even bother to try
We would eye each other with evil thoughts
Vengeance and evil deeds lingered our minds
Like thugs roaming the streets of the city waiting to commit their famous crime.

I had to say goodbye,
Every little hope was dead
Peace was something we wished
To possess our souls like a demon
Because everything was bitter as a lemon
The silence in the house was our daily sermon
No word we could utter to mend the situation
And we needed a solution
And the only choice left was to say goodbye
Before someone dies with a lie
That everything is fine.

18/05/2021

The death of her love
Like leaves falling silently from a tree
It makes no sound
I doesn't even give a warning, one, two, three...
No, it dies without giving reasons
All we see is the motionless body of her love
Without a soul, without life.

03/05/2021

It keeps me up at night

It keeps me up at night
To see you on your knees
Praying that God teach you how talk
How to walk
The way of faith

It keeps me up at night
To see grief lingering your eyes
You dont even care about flies
Your soul long for peace

It keeps me up at night
And I know you also dont sleep
Your mind wrestle, your mind fight!
To overcome the dark clouds, to find light

It keeps me up at night
To hear you shout to the Maker
"What have I done to deserve this"
I know these words are your daily prayer
Your soul long for peace

It keeps me up at night
And I am without peace
And I pray God to change your story
So that you may shout your daily prayer with a smile on your face
"What have I done to deserve this"