Yog'aina

08/06/2022

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Oftentimes, trauma can leave us feeling splintered and disassociated. Ngozi Chukura found a way to feel safe in her body with psilocybin, healing her matrilineage with righteous rage.

29/11/2020

“I am worthy. I am capable. I am powerful.”

As I begin my journey to self-sufficiency, I choose to start it with intention. I choose to start it with not a belief, but an inner knowing. An inner knowing that I can do anything I put my mind, heart, and soul into.

I truly believe in what has been calling out to me. The calling of service. I am so excited to announce that in some time, I will be introducing my Chakra workshop. A nine week journey into ourselves. A journey to find alignment within our body, hearts, and minds.

Do you seek to feel secure and grounded within yourself?

Do you seek to have a flowing sense of pleasure?

Do you seek to find a balance between your will and surrender?

Do you seek to radiate love for yourself and the world?

Do you seek to communicate compassionately?

Do you seek to find the wisdom within you guiding your way?

Do you seek to have union with the universal energies?

If this sounds like something that calls to you, keep following as I give updates as to what will be included in this workshop.

Namaste 🙏

20/11/2020

I’ve been lost in finding security in this transitional phase of my life. Having unexpectedly moved across the world to my home country. A place I didn’t imagine coming home to any time soon. Over the last eight months I have experienced a full spectrum of energies, from love and happiness, to hate and anger, from sadness and loss, to an overflowing of joy.

I’ve taken on a more conventional life (or at least a much more conventional one than I’ve lived in many years) and having done so has shown me the things I took for granted before, the things I truly yearn for and love, who the people are that support my in this journey called life, and what I believe to be my calling. A calling of service, a service to others and to myself. A calling to spread love, self-awareness, communication, health, spirit, and happiness unto others and create the awareness within others that they too can do this themselves. We all have the power to know and be who we are authentically, sometimes we just need to be shown the tools, or just simply reminded of this powerful thing. I am a creator, I am an energy being, I am light, I am a beam of power that can do and be whatever my heart is calling me to be.

Life is a practice, it never stops, just as your heart never stops. We have a beat and we must listen to and live within that beat. What is your heart pumping through this temporary body? What is your calling? I invite you to take just five or ten minutes today. Stop what you are doing, right this moment, close your eyes, relax every individual part of your body separately, and then as a whole. All the while taking slow deep breaths, that are comfortable and natural to you. Relax completely into your body and just listen. Listen without labeling or judgement. Noticing what comes up for you and allowing it to flow with non-attachment. What is your heart beating through you today?

Have a beautiful day!

My mantra for the day: “I love myself. I am worthy. I can. I am light.”

05/04/2020

Are we on the precipice of change? How is the world going to change? How is medicine going to change? How is government policy going to change? How are you going to change? How is the collective consciousness going to change? How are our thoughts going to change? How are we going to see, acknowledge, accept, and play with our shadow sides? All things, people, and shadows serve a purpose within our selves and within the world.

Are our primitive skills, trades, medicines, and beliefs going to rise again?

Alan Watts- Beautiful Error
We never know how circumstances are going to change
And how our need for different kinds of people changes
At one time we may need very individualistic and aggressive people
At another time we may need very cooperative team working people
And at another time we may need people who are full of interest in dexterous manipulation of the external world
And another time we may need people who explore into their own psychology and are introspective
There is no knowing
But the more varieties and the more skills we have on this thing better

So you see here again the problem comes out in genetics
We do not really know how to interfere with the way the world is
The way the world actually is, is an enormously complex interrelated organism

The same problem arises in medicine because the body is a very complexly interrelated organism
And if you look at the body in a superficial way you may see there is something wrong with it, hence chickenpox that itch and come out all over the place
You might say “well spots are there cut them off” so you kill the bug
Well then you find you’ve got real problems
Because you have to introduce some bugs to kill the bug
By bringing rabbits into Australia
And that starts going out all over the place and getting out of hand
And then you think wait a minute it wasn’t the bugs that were the problem, there are bug all over the place
What’s wrong with this person is that his blood system suddenly became vulnerable to those particular bugs, his resistance wasn’t up
Therefore what you need was not an antibiotic but vitamins
Okay so were going to build up his resistance
But resistance to what?
You may build up resistance to this, and this, and this class of bugs
But then there’s another one that loves that situation and comes right in

See we always look at the human being medically, in bits and pieces
Because we have heart specialists, lung specialists, bone specialists, nerve specialists and so on
And they each see the human being from their point of view
There are a few generalists, they realize that the human body is so complicated that no one mind can understand it
And further more supposing we do succeed in healing all these people of their diseases
What do we then do about the population problem?
We’ve stopped callaura, the bubonic plague, were getting the better to tuberculosis, we make fix cancer, and heart disease then what will people die of?
Well they’ll just go on living
And the enormous quantities of us
Then we have to fix this birth thing
Pills for everyone
Then we find what are the effects and side effects of those pills
What are the psychological effects upon men and women about not breeding children in the usual way
We don’t know!

And what seems a good thing today or yesterday, like DDT, turns out tomorrow to been a disaster
What seemed in the moral and spiritual sphere true too, like great virtues in times past, are easily seen today as hideous heathens
Let’s take for example the inquisition
In its own day among Catholics, the holy inquisition was regarded as we today regard the practice of psychiatry
You, you see, you feel that in curing a person with cancer, almost anything is justified.
The most complex operations , the most weird surgery, people suspended for days and days on end on the ends of tubes, with x-ray pe*******on, burning them.
People undergoing shock treatment
People locked in the colonies and monotonous corridors of mental institutions
In all good faith they knew that witchcraft and heresy were terrible things
Awful plagues imperiling peoples souls forever and ever
So any means would justify to cure people of heresy
We don’t change
We are doing the same thing today
But under different names
We can look back at those people and see how evil that was
But we can’t see it in ourselves.

12/02/2020

Have you ever had a dream that you feared? Not a dream while you are sleeping, but instead a dream while you are awake, a lifelong dream.
I’ve had a personal yoga practice since I was seventeen years old. I’ve been a certified yoga instructor for over three years now and have only taught a handful of times.
Why?
Because being in front of a group of strangers, being the center of attention, it scares the s**t out of me!
How could something you love so much, something that brings you so much joy be feared so deeply?
Self......Limiting.......Beliefs......many of us are our own saboteur!
We let our minds run with these false misperceptions about ourselves and our abilities. Creating stories that are far from the truth, only to our own detriment.

I recently just returned back home to Thailand, with the security and stability of a proper long term visa and working permit. I had accomplished something that so many people try to do here and struggle to achieve. I am setting my roots and achieving this lifelong dream.
Yet, when I got home I felt overwhelmed and anxious. After a couple days I was on the verge of tears, I couldn’t organize my thoughts.
Soon, I ran into one of my good friends and mentor, and he told me something that one of his mentors had told him in a time of struggle and overwhelm.
Think of an anthill. They can be so grandiose, so large, but, how did it start? One grain of sand at a time. Little by little this amazing thing gets created. It took a lot of hard work, patience, teamwork, and conquering fears to build.
Then it hit me, I set a goal that when I returned back home that I would post my yoga flyers around town and start this dream, it had become reality, and I was scared!
Yet, every time I had taught before it brought my so much joy, satisfaction, and enjoyment seeing what people can get out of just an hour of yoga. It was fulfilling, and made me happy.
In that moment I decided, I don’t care if I’m scared, let me be scared, I’m doing this. I want to do this, I can do this, I am doing this!

So what dreams do you fear?
What self limiting beliefs are you telling yourself?
What is stopping you from achieving the life you want?
Know in every cell of your being that you can achieve it, believe in yourself, thank your shadow for showing you your fears and tell it, no, I am going to do this!
Continue to move forward in a positive productive manner, knowing that no matter the size of the progress, no matter the hurtles jumped you are moving toward your dream!

If you would like to hear more about my story or just talk about your fears, dreams, shadows, or any other aspect of yourself please feel free to send me a message. I would love to connect and share with you!

Have a wonderful day 🙃

27/01/2020

I went to an amazing meditation workshop today with .ago. One of the three meditation practices she taught us was a form of Vedic Meditation. She explained the philosophy, how to do it, and the effects it can have on your life. She said that throughout our bodies are these “bubbles” and as you practice this these “bubbles” work there way through your conditionings, your traumas, your past and through a consistent practice eventually these bubbles begin to pop and cause healing within your mind in regards to these conditions, traumas, or past events.
It really made me think about the part of my past that keeps popping up into my present mind and invading it with negative, false ideas. They continue to come up more and more and it’s made me realize that I need to work on healing my past to move forward in a positive healthy productive way. I’m going to start by saying my glass is full, full of the life, love, nourishment, and abundance. I have an amazing love, my two children, my friends, the beginnings of a sustainable life in Thailand, I have the necessities to thrive, I am abundant! How are you going to start to heal your past, today?

28/12/2019

28/12/2019