11/03/2020
I consider myself an honest person.... maybe brutally honest some would say.
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But lately feeling more like a phony...hear me out. I share my life on this platform in order to empower other women to be their best self. To dig deep and push past their circumstances to show up for themselves in their own lives.
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But I have a hard time sharing the hard stuff. The ugly day to day stuff. The stuff that actually makes me human just like you. So I feel sort of like an .
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In December 2019 my youngest was diagnosed on the spectrum. They used to call it Aspergers but now it’s lumped into the spectrum. He has struggled his whole life in one way or another. Diagnosed in 1st grade with severe adhd and sensory issues. I would be lying if I didn’t say every single day is a struggle in some ways for him.... and the family. 😬😳 The worry and anxiety I feel everyday as he goes about life or navigates friendships, school, heck being outside! It’s a lot and if you have a child with any of these issues you get me!!
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But you know what else is hard?? Throwing in 2020!! Routines out the window, teenagers who don’t get to start high school, youth sports being cancelled, everyone feeling isolated and lonely. It’s just been a lot.
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So I sit here in tears feeling like a total failure. Like I’ve waited too long to seek more help for him, like I’ve dropped the ball on my teens, just all around sucking at this major job they call . I KNOW I’m not alone in this feeling and I also KNOW I’m a good mom, but I can be better.
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So today I sit and cry, but then I’ll pick myself back up off the floor and take another step because that’s what we do. Life’s hard and I’m nowhere near perfect. But I don’t give up and I’m way too freaking strong to let this stuff hold me back from showing up for my kids everyday as the strong mom they need.
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10/04/2020
Pizza night with my youngest boy!
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I had ideas of what today would be like having it just be him and I for 24 hours, but he had other plans🤨🤪
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By plans I mean he wanted to stay home and do nothing. I finally swayed him to at least go pick up a pizza with me.
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Sometimes our plans are no plans at all. So it’s early bedtime and a lounge kind of night I guess. 🤷🏻♀️ At least we have pizza. 😏
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What is your go to dinner for a Saturday night?
10/02/2020
Scrolling my phone and stumbled across some old pics that have so much meaning to me!
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The first selfie I had to take the night before I ever started this journey of healthy living. The picture says it all. I was unhappy, not confident in myself and embarrassed i had let myself go for so long! I had no clue what I was doing or where this was going to take me. I was tired of running myself ragged everyday and NEVER pouring back into myself or focusing on fitness & nutrition.
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That top picture was the first time I got to meet so many of the women I had already been working out with online. It was the first time I really saw the BIG PICTURE. The first time I felt like this new community was becoming my family and I wanted that domino effect to keep going! The first time I really realized how far I’d come and where I wanted to go next!
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Lastly, that bottom right pic! My girl, my ride or die sweat sister! My very first coach to join my team almost 3 years ago and run this biz alongside me! I’ve gotten to know her so much better and I am so excited about where we are going .... together arm in arm!
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So while 2020 has taken away so much from us it hasn’t taken away my dreams of what I see this team doing! 2021 will be here before we know it so I’m keeping my eyes focused on that! Are the decisions you’re making today helping you get to where you want to be tomorrow... next month... next year?
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10/01/2020
✨Confession: I’m an emotional eater
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It’s something I’ve always struggled with and continue to work on daily. Candy is the biggest culprit! Sweet, sour, gummy, chocolate .... I don’t discriminate! 😏
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Over the past 3 years working on myself i have managed to find a good flow and balance in it all.... until that fateful day Friday the 13th when it all startled unraveling! 🤣 2 weeks turned into 7 months plus and I’ve fallen off track a bit on my journey to feeling my very best! Anyone else relate?? 👀✋🏻
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2020 has been a huge gut punch to everyone in so many ways and I for one am not giving in anymore! I’m taking back my life and my routine and my HAPPINESS!
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So, I’m mapping out a game plan for the rest of 2020 and taking along all the women ready to make some changes. I’ll be helping them choose a program right for their needs and schedules, a nutrition plan that doesn’t feel like deprivation and helping them stay accountable to it!
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If you’re ready to take back control and create a daily routine that will literally give you so much life... let’s chat. Comment below and I’ll send you a DM.
09/22/2020
Let’s talk about being brave!
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Today this guy was really BRAVE! He was struggling with online learning at the end of last year and now with it seeming to have no real start date we knew we had to make a change.
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With too many stressful days and too much distractions at home we decided to look into private school. Something I never thought would be possible for him for many reasons.
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We went and took the tour and i felt such a sense of calmness about it. The teacher we met was so sweet and spent extra time talking with Xander and making him feel so special. Everything worked out just as it should and i really felt like God gave me so much peace about it and made it very clear to us.
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So today this guy had his first day back in a classroom in over 6 months. He said he loved it and his favorite part was wearing school uniforms because he said it makes him feel fancy.
08/25/2020
Day one of and we survived! There are some kinks to be worked out for sure, but all three kids made it on their zooms with only a few issues.....
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One certain 8th grader (pictured) got marked absent (on the first day) because he wasn’t able to get into the zoom 🤪, but he fixed it and the rest of the day ran smoothly.
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One school had issues with zoom and crashed the server😬... but it all got worked out... hoping tomorrow runs better. (Wish there was a holding my breath emoji)🤞🏻
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This is NOT the way I pictured life being right now and definitely not my ideal situation, but I know we’re capable of making this work. I’m a straight shooter so I’ll say this, I don’t enjoy homeschool at all whatsoever, but I im sure we will come out of this stronger and hopefully they will all learn to appreciate being AT SCHOOL once they are allowed back in!
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So cheers to all the moms and dads out there making it work, doing it all and holding it altogether because .
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08/24/2020
Happiest birthday to the newest teenager in the house! Maverick, you have the sweetest spirit, kind heart and sensitive nature. I love that you still hold my hand when we go places and always want to be tucked in at night. I love watching you play sports (even though you are HIGHLY competitive and sometimes that works against you!) 😘 I love watching you grow up and am so excited for the years to come! Happy 13th Mav!
✨Swipe for some cute throw backs✨ @ San Diego, California
08/15/2020
✨In case anyone needed a reminder.✨
08/14/2020
When quarantine hit i thought no way...... no way i would survive being cooped up with the kids and nowhere to go. No way I would be able to ‘homeschool’ any of them (this is still yet to be seen) and no way I would be able to keep juggling it all in such an uneasy time!
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I’m an extrovert that loves to be busy. I thrive on routine, being with people, Saturdays spent at the fields watching the kids play sports and taking trips together.
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And when the news kept coming with more closures, longer time out of school (or maybe not returning at all😐) and new requirements. I about lost my mind......but this guy has kept me steady. He gives me space when i need it, and knows how to cheer me up when I’m about to crack!
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This November we will celebrate 16 years MARRIED! How is that even possible? Babe, you make just a little bit more bearable!
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08/12/2020
I used to be part of a 5am crew. We would get up and workout first thing and I always had such a sense of accomplishment after.
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Yes there were days it felt harder than others, but overall it felt great. Then hit and all my routine and excitement for those early mornings stopped. 😬😐
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Anyone else struggling to push themselves lately? I am so guilty of this, but this morning my friend came over and we got it done! It helps to have those people in your life that push you outside your comfort zone, encourage you to get up when you don’t want to and be the cheerleader you need when you’re feeling down!
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Some days are harder than others but today I’m grateful for her and the encouragement she gives me!
08/11/2020
Remember when we used to be able to sit indoors? 😭
Scrolling through my phone and stumbled across so many pictures of “pre-rona” and it got me feeling all the feels.
In these moments of uncertainty I’m just putting one foot in front of the other each day. How about you?
This is a job description that totally doesn’t suck:
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✨Live a healthy lifestyle & share about it
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✨Help others reach their fitness goals while you reach yours too
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✨Work from anywhere with wifi (typically a coffee shop because I’m an addict 😏)
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✨Travel to FUN fitness events to hang out with AMAZING people throughout the year.
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If you think any of that sounds like fun to
you and you want more details drop an emoji below or message me (if you’re too scared to put it out there)😳😏🤣.
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