03/11/2022
I am proud.๐คฉ
I pulled this affirmation card before my workout (& slid it into what is supposed to be a pop socket holder but has never actually functioned as one) and brought to mind what Iโm proud of right now.
I am proud of my willingness to lean into a โwinteringโ season rather than resisting it in favor of productivity or meeting other peopleโs expectations & demands.
I am proud of the support & security Iโve built around me and my willingness to lean into that abundant source.
Iโm proud of the self-trust Iโm growing in this โwinteringโ & the uncanny intuition Iโm gaining (or reclaiming).
I have a lot of past achievements to be proud of that I will never discountโbecause they are extraordinary.
But right now Iโm more proud of who Iโve become. May she ever evolve. However, she is someone to be proud of even if she doesnโt. Because the achievement isnโt whatโs worthy of praise, itโs the surrender to what is.
Oh, the paradox. Learning to hold two seemingly opposing realities at once has been this seasonโs greatest gift.
Life is never one thing. Truth is only true as long as you believe it. Winters are always are followed by Spring.
Iโm proud, yet humbled.๐
02/16/2022
Go ahead, run away.
Only this time, not to ๐ฒ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฒ.
This time, get away to F E E L it all.
To let it move ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ you.
When you sit with it, it passes. ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ๐ถ๐๐ฒ.
Itโs when we run from it, that it keeps finding us. You can only ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ what youโre ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ.๐
01/18/2022
IG may be my distraction du jour but I was the kid at teeball who would miss the ballโ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐โon purpose just to not have to run in front of people. To not be ANY sort of focus of attention. ๐คฆโโ๏ธ Later, I would take longer routes through school halls to avoid encountering certain people. The adult me became an EXPERT at being busy with a lot of *good* things, just to avoid admitting to myself I was avoiding something GREAT.โฃ
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๐ฆ๐๐๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐๐๐ฎ๐น๐น๐ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐บ๐ผ๐๐ ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐ฑ๐ผ ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐ฎ๐๐ผ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐๐ผ ๐ด๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฟ๐ฒ. Pain is a key player in decision making...and most of us havenโt made friends with discomfort.โฃ
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Imagine making a decision based on achieving what you *desire* rather than avoiding what you fear.๐โฃ
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โ๏ธFear of failureโฃ
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โ๏ธFear of rejectionโฃ
โ๏ธFear of deathโฃ
โ๏ธFear of public speakingโฃ
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โ๏ธFear of being aloneโฃ
โ๏ธFear of letting others downโฃ
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Our fears control our behavior. If thereโs something we say we want to do, but donโt, ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟ ๐ถ๐ ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ๐น๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐๐๐ฒ & ๐บ๐ฒ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ผ๐ฐ๐ฟ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ผ๐ณ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐๐น๐ of a life directed by fear. โฃ
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๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ฌ:โฃ ๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ฏ. โฃ
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๐๐ง ๐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ โ๐ธ๐ฉ๐บโ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ข๐บ? ๐๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ช๐ง๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ. โฃ
๐๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐จ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด (๐๐๐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ค๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ๐ด) ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ด๐ค๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฅ๐ช๐ด๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ท๐ฐ๐ช๐ฅ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. โฃ
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โฃHereโs what else happens: our self-esteem takes a hit. We know what we should do, but weโre not quite โbraveโ enough to make it happen.โฃ
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Good news: dealing with fear is a skill. โฃ
You can learn to embrace discomfort & act despite fear.๐โฃ๐โฃ
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Fear & response to fear become habits over time. You can create new habits to bypass the fear response AND grow your courage.๐โฃ
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More to come on this later in the week!โฃ
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01/05/2022
So much wasted energy was spent summer of 2018 deciding if i should cancel that next salon appointment or not. ๐คฆโโ๏ธ My vanity had a hold on me even though I absolutely hated sitting in that chair every couple of months & spending hundreds on something I wasnโt sure was for my own benefit OR external approval. Donโt get me wrongโI have NO problem spending time and money on myself anymore. My โself-careโ budget has significantly increased to include monthly massage, chiropractic, acupuncture, hydrafacials and quality skin & beauty products etc.
NO SHAME IN MY PERSONAL CARE GAME!๐๐ปโฃ
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I canโt even count the number of people that have assumed that my silver hair was an intentional dye job (some of those being hair stylists). When my natural growth is considered a โFANTASYโ color I have to laugh at the irony of it all.
Itโs worth pausing and inquiring of ourselvesโโwho is this decision for?โโ each time we are about to put down that next valuable dollar ๐ต or donate that next precious hourโณto aspects of our appearance.
Iโm still shaving my legs & pits (intermittently)โฆbut idkโฆask me about it next year.๐คทโโ๏ธ
Iโd love to hear what youโve dropped as youโve shed the burden of complying to ideals of beauty.๐
12/22/2021
"Go after your dreams!" "Live your authentic life!" What does that even mean?? ๐
You may want to but doubt sabotages your efforts to move towards what you want because you lack clarity on what that truly is.
We'd rather remain in the rhythms that we know, that are predictable; that keep those in our lives at ease--even if we know it's not honoring our fullest integrity.
But you know you're a powerhouse, a force to be reckoned with, when you know EXACTLY what you want. You'll fight to the death for what your certain is right for you or your family. And want that same clarity right now.
You can (A) wait for a booming voice from the heavens to spell out your divine destiny (good luck) OR (B) take the steps to achieve uncanny clarity.
๐ Clarity that fuels your actions each day.
๐ Clarity that guides your heart & soul.
๐ Clarity that dissolves any obstacle.
๐ Clarity that lights up that dormant life force inside.
It's available to you.๐
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