08/07/2020
It’s obvious that having the responsibility to care of another’s well being is complicated.⠀
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Recently, I found something I wrote down on hotel stationary.⠀
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It was from the second time I traveled for work after having my daughter. It was a 14 day trip without my family. ⠀
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The first 5 days were spent with me wondering what I had left behind, listening to children cry thinking it was my own, and wishing the days away so I can see my family faster. ⠀
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Basically, everything I swore I would not do. After years of loosing myself in relationship after relationship and successfully making a u-turn from that pattern, I knew this one would be the hardest to stay grounded and present. This was a test— that I failed at. ⠀
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I needed to make a u-turn and fast! So I did! ⠀
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For me, there’s a difference between missing someone and feeling guilt that you’re not there. ⠀
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✅ Sadness is okay. ⠀
❌ Guilt not okay. ⠀
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Especially, when you are doing something else you love. Something that is great for yourself and others. ⠀
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So here was what I did. ⠀
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Okay, back to the paper! I carried this paper in a note book with me for the remainder of the trip. ⠀
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It is a simple reminder that we are human and it’s humanly possible to have the capacity to:⠀
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- Love and be loved in many ways. ⠀
- Be great parents and have other passions.⠀
- Take on big things even when your world feels full.⠀
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This is what I wrote:⠀
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🧡 Fill it up with love.⠀
🧡 Do it for the greater good.⠀
🧡 Treat it with kindness.⠀
🧡 Go all-the-fu*k-out!⠀
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If someone needs this it’s all yours! ⠀
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It’s a Navi Day! ⠀
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Dani⠀
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Disclaimer: No babies were harmed in this experiment of motherhood.
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