Mayra Beltran Love

So amazing

Didn’t have anything big planned, just a giant blowout party in Mexico City with 20,000 of our closest Barbies and Kens 💗

Today marks one year post chemo! I spent some time thinking about that entire journey and reflecting on how cancer has changed me.

My hair has began to grow in, but it still falls out.
I have neuropathy in my hands and feet and sometimes I get restless leg syndrome.

I can't spell sometimes and I lose my train of thought 🚂💭🧠

I find myself not retaining new information; which makes work challenging at times.
And if you've tried to have a serious conversation with me, I'm sorry to say that I can't get my point across because words just don't come to me as quickly as before.

I'm grateful for everyone that has continued to pray for me🌸💖Everyone , near and far that put my name on prayer lists and sent my name to Cathedrals in other countries! I am eternally grateful💗💗💗💗

I thank you 🙏🏽📿 for all of your support.

For now, I just have to follow up with my Oncologist for 5 years! But it's ok because I know that I'm continuing to lI've bodly for those who we've along the way.🌸💞
When I get tired, I'll rest, but I won't give up.

💫Still spinning from this weekend. 🎵

My legs and feet are still hurting but my heart ❤️ is content.

My inner teenager is happy!!

💫 you can say that I am still celebrating my 40th! 🫠

I'm amazed at how much change I've gone through these last months. I probably sound like a broken record but whatever.

One thing that I've realized is that I have to feel my feels and process my cancer diagnosis.

I told ya'll that I was going to LIVE💕❤️ Sometimes we take things for granted. The breath in your lungs , 🫁 the fact that you can walk , run, dance , eat
And drink!

At one point , all those things seemed impossible to me.

But I'm here. And I will continue to push on as much as I can, for however long I have on this earth 🌍

Yeah, the though crosses my mind on a weekly basis. Is cancer going to return? And where? The likelyhood that it comes back is pretty high. Where will it go? I ask myself that question a lot!!

But that though leaves and quickly as it comes.

Allowing myself to go there, and come back helps me move on. Not to stay stuck in Cancer, but to process, feel and then move forward. I am still human 🧬🫀

💋Besame Mucho💋

On route to this mega festival 🎶🎵that we got tickets to 🎟 back in February ❤️ when I was in Chemo and didn't know what would happen next.

And the day finally arrived 🥰

So this is my first festival EVER! Wait no, I did attend the Curiosa Fest. Back in the day! 🤘🏽🎸

Here's to connecting with my inner teenager!

Happiest of Bdays to my little baby, not so baby anymore 💕💫

I have witnessed you continue to blossom 🌺💐 your growth and resilience is something to to admired.

We often forget that you're still a kid that processes things differently.

⭐️💫 Keep excelling at school and in baseball ⚾️🧢 💫⭐️

Keep exploring!
Never stop being you!

You have the world at your feet! You have people who love you 💕

Here's to being 8!🥤🥤💫

☀️🕶As the sun begins to set on my 30's. ☀️🕶

- I've learned that I am a very difficult person, but not a difficult person to love❤️ there was a time when I felt that I couldn't be . That there were too many conditions to love me and that I was "just too much."
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As I approach my 40's, I now know that Indeed, I am TOO MUCH & that's okay.
I am enough for the right people, and most importantly , enough for myself.
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I know that I always mean well, and that I am not a bad person, nor out to get anyone. That doesn't mean that I'm a saint. Because after all, I am a human. 🧬🧫🫀
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I know that when I love someone, I love hard, and sometimes, they can be suffocating .
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I am trying hard to be patient with myself and this season I am in. I have expressed how I feel like a stranger in my own body. ❤️🧠🦕🦖
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I also know that there is so much more to learn . And I am open to learning .
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These are just a few things I've picked up in my almost 40 years.

✨Almost 40✨

The last two birthdays have been intense.
In 2020 I had COVID, therefore we had to cancel our trip to Zion.

Last year I had a BIG ass cancerous tumor on my right o***y so I needed to have surgery and ultimately 18 weeks of chemo.

So this year I'm like 🏃🏽‍♀️ ready to do something BIG! It's my big 40!!!!

I have so many ideas and yet so little time ⏱⌛️

I've been feeling a certain type of way about turning 40 .
My brain isn't the same 🧠 and as much it was.

There's an internal battle that I fight daily. I look in the mirror and I am not the same person. My hair is different. I just can't seem to manage it . I almost feel like just shaving if all over again.

I think people see me bouncing back and they expect me to simply just get it together and continue life ...

I'M TRYING !!!!

Daily !!!

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Let me just take a moment ....

Frankie came into this world 🌎✨ bright and early on October 20, 2011!

I spend the day before walking around the Camarillo outlets with my mom and sister . We went to the food court , I don't remember what we ate, but the cashier was hilarious! He has a beautiful aura and personality and yvette and I kept saying we would run into someone so cheerful!

Hours later, as I sat in the rocking chair after a long day of walking Frankie flipped in my belly! 🤿🏊🏽‍♂️Little did I know that I was experiencing back labor! I had no clue!

1 am came around and I then felt sharp pains in my belly! I got out of bed, went to the bathroom, but nothing!

I then GOOGLED! Yes , I Googled it LOCA! "Am i in labor?" ⌨️✨

I soon started feeling contractions and went to wake everyone up!

My water never broke. My OB just so happened to be on call that night. They examined me and he said "Beltran, that baby is in your neck! He's breached! Prep for a c-section."

And so he joined us earth side bright and early. He is the light in my world. The air the fuels the fire!.🔥

May you continue to grow and step into being a pr***en with love, patience and with the understanding that you have an entire army of people that love you.

Finally getting back into what motivates and drives me!

Kicking off in person sessions this Sunday from 2pm-6pm in Long Beach ✨
I'm so excited to be getting back to the magic of in person Reiki ✨💕 I'll be taking my tools and my cards ✨ come with you intentions ready and allow the light of Reiki to illuminate your soul ✨
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Slots are limited ! DM for time slot!
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-please share with anyone who might needs some light 💡✨✨✨
Thank you to my Sis ✨ for allowing me to use her space ✨
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"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard: we're gonna have to work at this everyday. But i want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me .. Everyday.

-I ❤️ Adventures with you even when it means walking around California Adventure looking for short lines while sharing a Michie ✨❤️

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Before the month of September ends, I want to shed some light on Ovarian Cancer awareness month.

Know the symptoms and advocate for yourself.

⚡️abdominal pain
⚡️feeling bloated
⚡️feeling extremely full after meals
⚡️lower back pain
⚡️fatigue

💗 As you see these symptoms are very closely related to any other Period symptom that people with a Uterus experience.

When you feel something is off, it probably is. Advocate for yourself!

PAPS DO NOT SCREEN FOR OVARIAN CANCER! ⚡️✨

My journey is far from over. I remain under my doctors care for 5 years!!!!!!

I try not to think about it becsuse after all, I am here! Living !🦋

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