12/28/2022
As we end another Christmas season and trying hard to remember and keep our focus on the reason for the season. Many of us are faced head on with the ghosts of Christmas past.
No matter how much work we have done on our own healing, forgiveness, releasing our past afflictions, wrong doings, hurts, pains, and offenses here they are staring us in the face one more time. You know, that part of you that reminds you over and over again of the past you have been delivered from and the reasons way you need to return to those counterfeit behaviors. The past that tells you, for you to stay safe you must return to the way things used to be.
I know it is hard not to give in to those voices, whether it is a part of you reminding you of your past and your “role” in it or an external voice like a family member, reminding you of the way things used to be.
So, how’d you do?
I’m sure we all fell short in one way or another. But honestly, no matter how you did, I would like to ask you to prayerfully take stock, not to throw daggers at your weak parts, just evaluate how you did.
If it is helpful make two lists: first list all your successes over this Christmas season, every time you can recall your mood, attitude, or reaction change, from the way you might have in the past. The second list is looking at the times and situations when those old defensive or counterfeit behaviors showed up begging you to return to the way things used to be. Again, this isn’t to beat yourself up or show you where you have failed, not judging, just taking stock.
I’m guessing it was easier to recall your shortcoming then your successes. So, before we move on, I would invite you to ask God to show you, shine light, on your victories and write down any new victories that God might have shown you. I know that you did see changed reactions and even attitudes, which is proof you’re moving in the right direction.
And how about ALL the times that you reverted to the old you?
There is grace for that, with the Christmas season we just celebrated, we marked a world changing event, the birth of the Christ when everything changed!
God sent His Son to us to delivery the message of the depth of His mercy and grace to each of us, personally. Our God is here in every victory and in the times we fall short. Our God is here when we soar and when you fall in a huddled mess, crying out in the darkness. Our God reminds us that He wants us to bring ALL those times to Him, to receive His grace, and His healing power. He stands at the door of those parts of you that are hanging on to the past and asking you to open that door, to tear down those walls, to accept His healing in all areas of your mind and soul.
He asks, do you want to be healed?
What will you answer be?
It is also possible that we will still battle all the days of our lives, which is why the Bible reminds us that we must die daily to our sinful nature, continually putting the old man to death. This is the part of us that learned how to survive without God being the Lord of your life. The Bible also tells us that we must continue to be transformed by the renewing of our minds, keeping in His word, daily.
For me today, I thank God for showing me the hidden places I still need to release to Him, the parts of myself that still need to be tore down and allow God to be Lord over my life, every thought, every action.
Lord, lead me in your path of loving kindness, help me to act and respond through Your eyes, not the eyes of my past. Allow me to walk in the freedom that Your Son brought us through His birth as a mortal man and His death and resurrection. Bringing all of me to you, tearing down the walls of defensiveness, and every wall I have built to protect myself. Lord, help me to stand open before you without any walls, weapons or defense, depending solely and completely on You to shield me. Lord help me to find joy in all things, for from you all thing come.
Praise be to the one that has power over all things, seen and unseen, in Jesus’ might name. Amen