10/09/2020
2020 has obviously been difficult for all. For me, it’s been trial after trial after trial: my personal business and vision for women and this Hope Heart Village community needing to be drastically revamped due to social distancing; relationship difficulties and “heart surgery” and repairing on myself; confusing health symptoms that doctors swore was MS leading to multiple tests, no clear results, and no diagnosis but still many strange symptoms; our family’s business taking a major hit when schools shut down due to Covid that still is a wait-and-see reality; another Big unexpected medical blow that led to a diagnosis of early onset menopause (and, yeah, I’m only 37, but at least that explains some things) plus other major, not-so-fun female medical issues (that I’m happy to share 1:1, but will spare my male friends from the TMI); and then today, a mammogram and ultrasound on a very suspicious breast lump.
It’s been a taxing, heavy few months. But there’s also been a lot of joy and freedom too. At the beginning of this year, the Lord spoke to me loud and clear that this would be the year for “Releasing & Abundance.” This is partly why I released (launched) Hope Heart Village & . There was some abundance there for sure. But most of the releasing came in unexpected ways: letting go of old things, old habits, old ways of life, old mindsets.
And the abundance came equally unexpectedly: freedom, finding myself, independence, peace, joy, grace for myself and others, new perspective, and an open future with endless possibilities before us. I am abundant with so much hope for what is to come. It’s a good place to be.
So, today, (and before transitioning in a few days to a gluten, dairy, mostly-egg, mostly-sugar free lifestyle, not diet, for said medical issues) I’m CELEBRATING!
Celebrating positive mammogram and ultrasound results on my lump (Lord knows I needed good medical news!!). But mostly, celebrating all the hard realities I’ve been walking through in faith, God’s grace and provision, peace beyond my understanding, the personal growth I’ve made, freedom and joy, and all that’s to come.
Thanks for one last shake. 🥤
