08/11/2024
Six months ago today, I moved from Cincinnati, OH to Roanoke, VA for my husband's dream job. I loved my new home, neighborhood, gym, exploring the area with my sons, and I even started making friends right away. But I was lonely and craving deeper connection - that's the only reason I could think of as to why I started having su1c1dal thoughts. I've been dealing with depre$$ion since my parents got divorced when I was seven, but I thought I had it under control through my healthy lifestyle and the healing work I've been doing.
That's when I finally said yes to a friend who'd been sharing about USDA organic C🐝D and how it had helped her wean completely off m3ds. Antidepre$$ants didn't help me enough to consider using them again after I quit them 15 years ago, despite many periods of suffering since then. (*not a recommendation to quit your m3ds)
Within two weeks of starting C🐝D, those intrusive thoughts left 🙌 within four weeks, I felt like myself - something I've experienced only for short periods since I was seven. Now I feel like myself most of the time - it's like a veil was lifted.
Right around that time, I became very aware that deep issues within my marriage that had been present for years were still weighing heavily on me. My husband was aware of this and of what I was going through. However, a conflict brought those issues to a head, and I no longer believed I could ever feel emotionally safe in the marriage. After a couple of weeks of contemplation, I chose to leave my 14.5 year relationship. Another veil was lifted.
Life is difficult and heavy still, but I feel different - better than I ever have. I have more hope for my future than I ever have, despite having only rough ideas of what it will look like. I'm finally confident that I can and will not just be okay but thrive.
I don't know what you're going through, but I know most of us are suffering in some way. If I can help ease that, please let me.
Want to talk healthy lifestyle? C🐝D? Healing? Share relationship stories? Talk about our kids? Just have someone to talk to who will listen?
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