01/04/2024
2024 WILL BE MY QUANTUM LEAP YEAR
2023 took me down. One year ago was my last working day, the last group retreat. Then I became paralyzed, sick, unable to breathe or walk, completely dependent on others. My whole savings were quickly spent on hospital emergencies. I was alone in a foreign land; doctors could not diagnose me, and my health deteriorated day by day. I was on the edge of life, living from moment to moment, fighting for breath, trying to ease the pain. My whole nervous system was inflamed. I couldn’t sleep for an entire month.
I thought this is the end, my friend. Having fear of dying every single night, not knowing if I would see the daylight the next day. A big campaign was started; everyone, known and unknown, wanted to help, give advice, but nothing seemed to work. One day I was grasping for air in front of the hospital, and nobody cared. I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. And the voice telling me, you cannot die, you haven’t fulfilled your mission. With the last effort, I asked them to transfer me to an international hospital; an emergency car came with the oxygen, and they saved me. That was on April 8th.
Days and weeks passed as I teetered on the tiny line between life and death. I lost the desire for life. I felt a big disconnect, like there was no spirit in me, just a dying body. Many healers tried to help me, but only one helped me to reconnect, to get involved with life again, to take an active part in the healing. And again, no one could find anything that was causing the situation. Hospital after hospital, tests on intensive stations, IV injections, countless blood tests. I joined all Facebook groups with difficult diseases, and for over two months, imagined the worst-case scenarios. I could feel all those disabled people, lack of purpose, pure survival, celebrating the smallest successes, like going to the bathroom on my own.
Me, being independent my whole life, self-employed, suddenly I was at the mercy of existence and my surroundings. My friend set up a GoFundMe campaign; my healer friends gave me free sessions, my family was far away and very worried, local people stayed overnight in my place to help me, one friend who owns a restaurant sent me food every single day, my landlord was afraid that I would die in her place.
After two months of deep confusion, letting go of the fear of death, not knowing what was happening, not knowing if things would ever get better, being oft in so much pain that su***de seemed the best option, I managed to go to a bigger hospital and meet an experienced doctor who diagnosed the tumor on my spine, which was so big that it must be operated immediately, that could put me in a lifelong wheelchair at any moment.
There are a few more chapters of the surgery, a long journey of rehabilitation, lots of help from many sides, depressions, learning how to walk, how to breathe again, the journey which I would like to shorten it up and start playing this game with you.
One year of recovery, of resetting, of spiritual upgrade, reconnecting with the deeper parts of me, my family, my friends, rehab in several countries. I learned to walk again in Montenegro, I went to a retreat in a monastery in Macedonia, I lived in a finca in Spain where I could breathe and eat healthily, I went to Croatia to reconnect with my family, I went to a clinic in snowy Germany to get more strength, I did healing in a Saharan desert and swam with dolphins, I am currently in satsang in India to get clarity of the mind. Healing, resetting, and upgrading were my highest priority.
It's my first thing activity after being on pause for an entire year. I feel now very inspired and motivated to play with you. I am Transformer, Mentor, Reader, Tantrika, Creatrix. My powers are Intuition, Wisdom, Impact, Direction, Purpose. My talents are speaking, envisioning, coaching, healing, listening.
What makes my heart overflow is to live in fulfilment, hearing birds in the morning, awareness of the abundance I already manifested, gratitude that I am still alive, and fully recovered, innocence in people, kids, animals, beauty, plants. What makes my heart shrink is the violence, ignorance, meanness, coldness, manipulation, lies, unconscious behaviors, hurting.
I replenish my life force by slowing down, taking time, listening, getting inspired, writing, working out, swimming, sunbathing. Right now, I am focused on my vision, imagining my new future, how to bring myself back into the game, my new identity after all experiences I had.
What powers me up are the clients who go along with me, whose lives are transforming, groups and retreats, where we create incredible vortexes, most impactful events in people's lives. What powers me up is the fact that I almost gave up on life a year ago and now have an incredible personal journey with so much beauty and new horizons.
I am really grateful for all the learnings of the last year, the time I could take just for myself. I choose to play, even if I fail. I choose to face the unpleasant situations to fulfil my bigger mission. I choose to team up with people who will support me, create with me, work with me, get mentored by me. If you want to work with me, send me DM !
In the next 4 years, I will make the biggest leap I have made so far. I am helping thousands of people with my service. I am creating an abundant life. I am enjoying perfect health and living in the most incredible places. I am the most authentic and expanded version of myself. For me, for you, for us!
HAPPY EASTER !
Photos:
Before the surgery in June 2023 and February 2024 in Egypt.
