21/12/2023
THE DAY THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING
Last night, I had a Final Roleplay with the part-time job that I applied for. I got hired and will start next week (a 4-hour work). So happy when I got to bed. I can't even sleep thinking about it. I have 3 jobs already (1 full-time and 2 part-time jobs). Before closing my eyes last night, I thought to myself, this is the start of me fulfilling my goal for 2024 (pay debts).
I woke up at 4 am the next day, attended Simbang Gabi Mass on YouTube, thanked God for the new job, and cried my heart out because of happiness and gratitude. After the mass, I did the usual of checking my work email for my full-time job (this is what I do when it's my rest day) and then checked my CRM tool account (the main tool that we're using). But it gave me an error, that I don't have access to it and that I should talk to the admin about it. I felt a big thud in my chest. I chatted with one of my supervisors and asked her, and she replied that she would check it, but never came back to me. But still, I waited. Then an email came in, from my agency. The email was about an "END OF CONTRACT" email, and it finally sank in. I don't have a full-time job anymore. I was sad but I did not feel any regrets and panghihinayang, and I thought to myself, "Is this the right thing to feel or is this a sign?" A sign from God. A sign that I should focus myself moving forward to my life-long dream to be a writer. A sign that I should be focusing more on my masterclasses about FB ads and email marketing. A sign that I should be focusing more on business and being an entrepreneur. A sign that I should focus more on inspiring others through writing articles and blogs.
But, who's going to pay the bills? How am I able to provide for my family? I guess these are the questions that will be answered along the way. All I know is that despite being "terminated" 5 days before Christmas, and thinking if the 2 part-time jobs can be enough, one thing is for sure, in my 8 years in being an employed b*tch, this is the only termination that I'm happy, contented, and grateful about. Why? Because I will have more time to study and practice my new skills in writing, email marketing, and FB Ads, which I know can bring me more revenue in the future rather than working a full-time job with a lot of stress and pressure. I'm confident that I can do this. I will not consider this a failure but will take this as a challenge.
Hey! Look on the bright side. I can spend Christmas with my family instead of staying at home to work from 8 pm-5 am on the 24th. (The celebration will be at my partner's parent's house). I will work 4 hours each for my 2 part-time jobs and it will still be 8 hours a day. And the good thing about it is that in my other part-time, there is no schedule so I can do it anytime. I can be able to write my blogs and journals, focus on my business, study, and eventually earn more than I'm earning now.
I do believe in the saying, "Everything happens for a reason". I've been living with these words my entire life. I have lived for 33 years proving this principle. I failed one thousand times, but still managed to get up because of these words, and every time failure says "Hi" to me, I always think to myself, that God will never give me struggles that I can't overcome. He will not give me obstacles that I can't push through.
So, to those who are feeling down today, to those who lost their jobs, to those who feel that they're alone and that they are useless, I hope this will give you inspiration to stand up and FIGHT. No one's going to fight for you other than yourself. No one will lift you. You need to get up, fix yourself, and face the demons. Unleash that potential, discover your skills, enhance them, and make money out of them. I believe all of us have that fire that only needs to be ignited. Find that ignition and let it shine. Also, be an inspiration to others.
This is the day that CHANGES everything. Because this is the day that I realize that I can be and do MORE.
P.S. Just to let you know, my new part-time job can be upgraded to a full-time job, but I decided not to. Just not yet.
