28/09/2021
HOW FARMING CAN CONTRIBUTE TO BETTER MENTAL HEALTH
I got into farming by chance, and by that, I mean, I had no other option, dead broke and the only low entry sector that didn’t need a huge capital was farming for me. Retrenched at age thirty from a senior management position earning 220,000 KES a month, a Barclays loan of 106,000 and a project manager title up my sleeve, my own designated parking and a buzzing phone from the CEO, directors, suppliers, fellow employees and even the watchman! I was in the middle of it all and that gave me some validation that I was doing a good job. Then one day am there, with a debt to pay, moved to hot, distance Kajiado and zero income, I was devastated.
I felt the depression creeping in as I covered myself in my white cotton duvet, staring at my phone that didn’t ring anymore except for the occasional debt collector from the bank and insurance. Pregnant with my second child, hormones all over the place and not a friend in sight to calm my nightmare.
Things were hard!
I started a kitchen garden, and grew it to supply neighbours, local restaurants, church, and the mama mbogas. Combined with a lot of free therapy from USIU where I was an alumnus, I was able to get things into perspective, collect the shuttered pieces and rebuild my identity. The hopelessness felt dire, yet I couldn’t end my life because, the people pleaser personality that I am had too many people depending on her. So, there I was stuck in limbo, with nowhere to turn to.
Slowly simple joys of sowing seeds, harvesting, and supplying made my days and it got easier. My dads’ constant calls of weather I had gotten a job yet or did I think that farming was going to bring me enough dignity would set me back, but I pressed on. The joys of people in church smelling and thanking me for the fresh organic vegetables truly blessed my soul.
Highlights of my recovery from depression farmer on fire
· Therapy- someone listening without judgment to my monstrous thoughts
· Dealing with the debts- facing them head on and conversing with the debt collectors like the human beings they are
· Having something to do – idleness is indeed the devil’s workshop
· Physical labour- the mind sometimes is too tired and wants a break, when the muscles take on remedial manual work, the mind takes a much-needed rest
· Having living things rely on you. Making it about others, my chickens, cows, rabbits, and plants needed me to get out of bed to feed and water them.
· Interacting with non – judgmental parties- My cow, didn’t care about the dress code, or ask me my then dreaded networking question, ‘what do you do for a living?’
· Gym time- physical labor, made me sleep better, dealing with soil, weeds, nature is indeed a healer
· Leveraging on the digital platforms- they provided non- one on one market for my produce, feedback on my YouTube videos and a sense of value in the farming space.
· Fulfilment- getting clarity, knowing, and getting validation that what you do will be of benefit to others
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