13/05/2024
Fun time is about to over now its time to face the real world
In last 3 years i had happiest and the saddest moments of life
Started my first relationship on 18th Feb 2022 at the things ended on 14th October 2023 it wasn't like the perfect relationship but how it was i liked it that way
I'm still continuing things with the same person with whom i started but now i don't love her like the way i use to love before October 2023
I will not say it was completely her fault i was also responsible for the things that went wrong,
I hate myself for that maybe if i acted right maybe things would be better but the lesson i learned from it is never test your partner limits you never know what would there next move, in my case she cheated, i can never forget her and what she did at last but the thing is i don't know what to do next i never thought of another person in my life, i know there would be time when the universe will force me in it's way to move on but one thing i know no matter whom universe send to me i can't love her same the way i loved my S........
Rest,
I have a long way to go in life its not the end of life there are still several thing which could be worse than heartbreak but as a man i must face it with all my strength and yeah like the rest of people I'm also preparing for a stable job which can pay my bills make me independent and through it i can create something which stays behind that help my coming generation.
Rest yeah love life is destroyed its not because of wrong person but due to my negligence and immaturity now the only thing i have in my hand is my career and my family.
I lost love of my life my Queen the person whom i wanted to kneel down for, submit myself to.
I would have every materialistic thing in my life maybe even her too but the thing is the love i had for her will never be there like that the trust nothing will the same even with her, i will still be lonely inside,
nothing can heal me i don't trust anyone not even god
I will stick to morals and ethics and work hard for everyone around me will do everything to protect and provide, will try to never give anyone pain or suffering that received from the world and from people around me.
I can live with voices in my head, the questions and everything but can't stand if someone suffers those things because of me.
till now i learned world is really a very terrible place if you want to stay happy you have to lie to yourself for everything,
the sooner you understand that the world is ag*inst you the better you can prepare yourself.
don't trust people, med!a, g0vernment and everything you see in tv or smartphone everyone have there agendas and interest.
Learn to do everything by yourself before you consume anything do a proper research about it.
Stay Strong there's lot to come.
