15/11/2022
#81
Santosh Mahapatra
I never aspired to be an English teacher; why would I? I was terrified of English! Until 12th grade, my English scores were worth hiding and I had survived English as an academic course by mugging up before exams. However, for college- since I wasn’t an academically gifted student as such- there was only a vacant slot in the English department for me, so I took it. Funny story- it took me an entire month to read five pages of a history of literature book since I had to look up every single word in the dictionary to understand it was a struggle, indeed! My English continued to be my Achilles heel even after my post-graduation. Later, I worked as a teacher in DAV Bhubaneswar for a short period and managed to work on my English as I taught it. I wasn’t a bad teacher I guess, but I would have changed my teaching style if I had a chance.
But when I came to Hyderabad to pursue my B. Ed. degree at the English and Foreign Languages University (EFLU), I met with a lot of culture shocks. The general body was dominated by a female majority, and the campus was quite liberal, inclusive, and tolerant, which broadened my outlook. For an institution in early 2000s India, it was highly progressive regarding awareness and acceptance of the LGBTQ+ community. The people there had the liberty to identify and express themselves in any way they found comfortable. Even our academics were only assignment-based, examinations were considered an unnecessary source of stress for the students. This system is quite unique and effective and should be normalized in other educational institutions.
Regardless, I was unable to talk to anyone- partly because of the conversations in English- partly because of the “elite interest” of my peers in writing, cinema and painting I did not have, but soon picked up hurriedly to fit in with them.
Back in Odisha, I didn’t really have much access to the world cinema, and all I could do was watch a movie on HBO every night before bed. I tried to initiate conversations about movies, but I did not have the slightest idea of what kind of movies they spoke about. Names like Tarkovsky, Bergman, Coppola, and Antonioni would get thrown around. I had no clue about these great filmmakers and, of course, Indian filmmakers like Satyajit Ray, Girish Kasaravalli, and several others. I wanted to watch their movies for the sake of gathering conversational content as well as other English movies for improving my poor spoken English.
As I gained more and more exposure, I developed a genuine interest in cinema. Cinema not only improved my English but also broadened my horizons. It made me less judgemental of people and their livelihoods. I felt drawn toward art films, which pushed me to think creatively in a non-traditional, non-orthodox manner. I learned about the existence of genders that didn’t conform to the norm of the binary and became accepting and comfortable with them. I developed an appreciation for other Indian cultures; sometimes, I’d hum Tamil, Telugu, or Malayali songs. Making other people and their cultures your own became increasingly common, and that helped me connect with people despite our differences in language, culture, or caste. When pursuing my M.Phil., I started teaching English- yes, you heard it right- in non-formal courses offered by EFLU.
After completing my M.Phil. in English language education at EFLU, I did my Ph.D. on a topic related to improving teachers’ ability to carry out assessments, at University of Hyderabad. I still work in that area and some day, I hope to have a say in the national educational assessment system. It was fast and only took me three years to complete. My English had become quite refined by then. Interestingly, I submitted my Ph.D. thesis and joined BITS on the same day!
I started off teaching courses like Advanced Communicative English and Technical Report Writing, but after 4-5 years, I started taking courses like Effective Public Speaking. I also introduced a course called “Introduction to Critical Pedagogy,” which talks about aspects of teaching related to class, caste, sexuality, disability, how things are taught, how teachers feel, and what science says about teaching and learning. It is a fun course. This semester, I taught a new course, Computer Mediated Communication in which we discuss issues related to gaming, addiction, social media, po*******hy, streaming behaviour, online cheating and harrassment, etc. We are having a good time.
My love for movies, languages and people has been growing. Our connection with multiple languages, people from different cultures and movies from various parts of the country and the world has the potential to make this world a beautiful place.