27/06/2023
No one really tells you, i guess because no one really knows, how long it takes to get your life back “on track”.
But what track? Who’s track?
Since Andrew died over 3 years ago, i felt this constant surge to live, to fill my days with life, full well knowing the fragility and also fleeting nature of life.
Ive felt this constant desire to experience it all, to ensure mediocrity doesnt play a part in the story of my life.
But that way of life, challenges the “track” so many of us want, or believe, we should be on.
The constant change and bold action challenges the belief that we should be settled, have a house, a relationship, a set path that we can see before us for the years to come.
At times i feel like im way off track, as i sit in an overwhelming state of comparison.
But more often, i feel beyond “the track”, instead flying above it, holding a birds eye view of all the tracks available, aware of how many more routes, sometimes more fulfilling routes, there are in life to follow than just one track.
My point? If your life has every been significantly taken “off track”, it can often feel like your whole life has been uprooted, thats confusing, thats painful, thats overwhelming. I know.
But don’t pressure yourself to go back to that one track, your whole life has changed, your view on life and on what really matters has changed. YOU have changed.
So allow yourself, instead of fighting for where you “think” you should be, step back, fly up, look at ALL the tracks available, and choose the one which is right for you, NOW.