Elevate your Mind with Dhyan Ji

I awoke this morning to anxiety filled cells, an inner shaking, ears buzzing and a story to tell.

The masks are falling all over the world now, what have we become? When fake is celebrated and real is ignored?

What is life about, chasing the biggest score? Suffering is the order of the day for so many in so many different ways.

Its not one fits all.

How are we going to get out of this mess? The stories we tell ourselves and those we are told?

What matters the most is our connection to the earth. To nature, to truth, whatever that looks like.

We all hold beliefs that we are not loveable, liked or even accepted, are we willing to stand up and let go of whats expected?

Anyone else read their memories from years ago and think God damn I was wise 🤣🥰

At this point I feel like life is a spiral and we continue to come around to the same thing in a different way.

Currently in a dark night of the soul, never ever imagined I’d be back here again!

Yet here I am, but knowing what I know now its ok to be in the darkness even in the Summer.

The Soul needs the darkness to grow, just like the seeds do. So I’m in new soil and I’m going to navigate this new journey into the cave of my being.

I’m not afraid of the darkness or shadow, because I know I’m made of the light of Stars.

I will find my way on this path and when the time is ripe I’ll bloom and blossom again. 🌹

For now I’m deep in the earth finding my way home to myself.

Nature is my guide, my inspiration, my joy and reverence. God is my kingdom and I am my queendom.

I am surrounded by plants, rose petals, salts and all the things that bring me back to what is sacred and holy.

Quan Yin looks over me every day, she holds my Grandpa’s rosary riding her Dragon who is coiled around her feet in flight. She’s beautiful and a perfect reminder of the Bodhisattva I am.

The journey is not linear, its circular, its spiral, its the molecular structure of life. Our path is the structure of all life. It’s a geometric pattern that is unique to each of us.

Like the pattern of a leaf, the inner cycles of a tree, the thumb print, its in everything…

A holy pilgrimage to the centre of the spiral.
To the centre of God, of now, of the heart.

~ Dhyan Ji 🌹

Before my Diagnosis

There are things about me you might not know, I am dyslexic and it can lead to word blindness, meaning I dont see a word at all!

Sometimes I confuse my left with my right, especially in the car! I also have Adhd inattentive and hyperactive (now formally diagnosed) which means I can over share (this is probably going to be one!), it just happens. It could be why I was one of the pioneers of vulnerability, before it became a trend.

I can feel my way in a space, I can w**d out things, people and funny or off energies. I’m super sensitive to pretty much everything.

I am often multitasking in so many ways and I get lots of really fun and exciting ideas. Sometimes I am on the go constantly and sometimes I am far happier working from my bed. Some days its hard to motivate myself and others I am so motivated....somebody stop me 🤣💃

None of this is “bad” it is parts of me that I am still learning to understand and love. Occasionally it means I have misunderstandings with people. It also means that people very often misunderstand me or think I am being awkward, aloof, rude, unkind or whatever else they think.

It is not about getting rid of the ego.

The ego is a part of us. It is not about pushing parts of ourselves away, judging and making ourselves “wrong” in any way.

Many of us have enough experiences of that growing up, especially if we are neurodivergent. If you are born with AdHD, Autism, Dyslexia or a combination of all three, like me. You will face all kinds of outward criticisms and misunderstandings.

These can form the foundations of your experience and outlook, leading to some very intense negative inner feelings and thoughts towards yourself. All of which have been projected onto you.

It can take years and several diagnosis to realise that these criticisms are nothing, but other peoples opinions about things they do not understand or value. People often fear what they do not comprehend and in society we have not been taught to respect people who are different and do not fit a mould so easily.

There is nothing I can tell you, except that you have all the answers inside of you.

~ Dhyan Ji 🌹

On this Auspicious day. ✨🌹✨

The 27th of May 2013, is the day my entire universe collapsed. Everything I had come to know about myself and this world was dissolved in a matter of hours.

I was born a new, a rebirth and this made way for a new life, a clean slate, an empty mind and the most beautiful gifts from God, which came in the form of realisations one after the other. I was a child in wonder. ✨

I had been set like a clock, back to my original settings. For the first time I had remembered who I am and what I am not. The keys to this transformation were handed to me one by one, in quick succession, the realisations flooded my body/mind.

I received the keys to Enlightenment. My pure soul, my divinity and the blessed state of no mind. I don’t know why God picked me that day, I must have been ripe and ready.

I am and will remain forever in gratitude and devotion. I am thankful for all those who have supported my path and crossed my path from birth. Praise be to God, the glory and the kingdom of heaven are within you.

May you walk this pathless path with grace and ease. May you all be free, may you know your freedom. May your suffering cease.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.🌹🌹🌹

Something is beginning, something is ending, something is being created and something is being uncreated. I am between the worlds again.

Cool air, cosy blankets, candles and cards, nature calling, frankincense burning, laughter, beauty, exquisite sun rises and sunsets, grief and extascy entwined in reality.

On this day my Son was born and the mother I became 25 years ago. A Joyful moment in the cosmic order of life.

I remember the aloneness, the bleeding, the emergency rush to hospital. I remember the pain, on my own with this, wandering the hospital corridors at night, unsure, a little scared and feeling out of control. Water pouring out of me. There was also a quiet confidence amongst the unknown.

As I drifted in and out of awareness focusing within, my body still and yet full of sensations, frozen in time, between worlds. My portal was opened with a knife for this new birth. More in the comments 🌹

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As an AuDHD Woman, I have the ability to be calm in a crisis, centred even, alert and to act fast. However the fall out from being able to hold it together so well, is that the after affects can be very overwhelming and lead to burn out.

I am forged in the fires of my own suffering and if I do not open to those shadows they will find me and stand with me. Like a work of art, those fires mould and shape who I am becoming.

I have gone years believing I have dealt with it all, only to be triggered into a memory and discover I have not delved deep enough yet.

My cells just like yours hold all the Akashic records, from our Birth to our death and everything in between. Before our Birth too. My experiences, choices and opportunities.

Through the menopause there is a releasing of all that we have tolerated, all that we have juggled, all the energy we have put out into the world, has to come back. A process of 10 years or so of readjustment, remembering ourselves and letting go of life as we knew it. More in the comments 🌹