25/11/2021
WHAT DOES BEING A MUM MEAN?
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Today's post was supposed to be different, more musical, more professional. And I apologise if someone was hoping for more "to the point" post.
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But at 4.40 am this morning as my 4 y.o. climbed into our bed full of "monster fear" and as I lay sleepless next to her this post came to me.
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In my youth, when I was doing my music degree I never intended to be a teacher. I wanted to be a musician, I wanted to be an accompanist and even a composer (created a few pieces) but NEVER a teacher.
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I figured that I didn't have enough patience for children nonsense. My thoughts were processed at a warp speed and so was my life. Back then in my semi-childish opinion of a 20+ year old children were annoying, slow and not fun to work with.
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The idea of an acompanist didn't work out, so I figured - just change your path. And so I did!
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Yes music still had an important place in it. And yes I was ocassionally consulting out of my expertise but it was never a career.
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And then at some point in my life I had my child, I became a MUM! And the world had turned up side down.
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This almost 3.5 kg of joy changed me forever.
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โค๏ธ I have discovered that I have a patience and love to handle an army of kids.
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โค๏ธ I have discovered that children are fun and that they are the pure innocence of this world.
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โค๏ธ I have discovered that children are creative and with a bit of encouragement they are almost superhumans.
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โค๏ธ And I have discovered that they need our help and understanding. They need us to listen to them and guide them.
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However, we need guidance too.
And this strange combination of overwhelming power and at times unbearable guilt that sets in the moment our children are born I believe is our guiding light.
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It certainly guides me as a mum and as it turned out as a music teacher - this constant pursuit of finding better ways.
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And I am so grateful for the life opportunity that made me realise that this is my true passion.
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What are your thoughts guys? Did parenthood change you?