Tarot Pal

About a month ago a spider chose my window as her home. I watched her catch flies in her web, roll them up for later, then suck their blood.

Rain came, heavy rain. The web was destroyed and she retreated to the underside of the window frame. Pulling her legs close, making herself as small as possible. The rain lasted for days but she didn't move. I found myself fascinated by her patience and resilience. Would she be able to hold on? To survive without being able to hunt for food?

Then one morning I came downstairs, the sun was shining and she's busy finishing her new web, waiting for flies.

Our society is set up for pushing and producing through each day, no matter the internal or external conditions. It's designed around the circadian rhythm, which matches the hormonal cycle of men. Wake up, testosterone levels are high, expend energy through the day, tire as testosterone depletes, sleep, repeat.

Those who menstruate have a circadian *and* infradian cycle. The infradian hormonal cycle means that some days we're full of ideas, have lots of energy and love to socialise...and other days we need more rest, less exercise, and a digital detox.

If you feel like you can't keep pushing, consider that the reason you expect yourself to is because of patriarchy.

Step off the 24hr merry-go-round and get onto the moon clock rollercoaster 🎢

In a society that measures a person's worth by the amount you can produce or purchase, some of the most radical acts involve making space and time to love, create and heal our self, community and planet.

We can revolutionise what it means to exist by enjoying
the p r o c e s s (the building *and* the resting inbetween) instead of chasing the outcome.

Take some deep breaths and remember that this is your life! Your wonderful life! And you are not going to rush, pressure and hustle yourself through this day or the next. Rebel by being languid, slow, intentional and contemplative...you'll know when it's time for web-building again 🕸

⚘🌸 happy Imbolc + chinese/lunar new year of the tiger 🌙🐅

the beginning of spring so let's plant a flower garden in our hearts and wombs, knowing that not everything will come up roses, but that we will feel our way through the joys + pains, making those scars the cracks in which more new seeds can root. soft power for 2022, hold on to your crystal balls 🔮🕊⚡

time to reconnect with your inner acorn, big trees. re-watch Fern Gully, subscribe to TreeSisters: women seeding change
or Ecologi, write to your MP about stopping the cambo oil fields (there's a template here: https://actionnetwork.org/letters/tell-your-mp-to-stop-cambo)

today we remember our *potential* to affect change. environmentalism is our self-actualisation. hug a tree or put your hand on one. thankyou trees for absorbing all that carbon. I ❤ you. put your hand on your heart and thank yourself for absorbing all that carbon. I ❤ you. be reminded you are nature same as the trees 🌳 you are a tree.

101 days of cold water 🌊⚡

This has been the most uncomfortable self-love practice I've ever undertaken. The cold is brutal and unfriendly. So it makes sense that you feel like a fu***ng WARRIOR every time you get in it. Each day it was just me in the bathroom psyching myself up to spray or plunge into the freezing unwelcoming wet. I found reserves of self-belief I hadn't met yet. An inner cheerleader yelling YOU CAN DO THIS.

All kinds of emotions came up in the cold. Some days I was pure rage absolutely infuriated at myself for this stupid painful ridiculously horrible process. After watching my mind tell me to be love and light and squishing how I really felt down for about 65 days, something changed when one day I got in and just started yelling F**K ARGH UGH FUUUUUUUUCK over and over. I've never felt so peaceful. Sometimes I'd be sad, feeling sorry for myself, whyyyyyy did I have to do this, I can't cope etc. Eventually I stopped being mean and telling myself to be tougher, and gave myself permission to cry. Again, peace afterwards, and sometimes, just allowing myself to feel sad meant the tears didn't need to come.

It's only in the last week that I made the connection; in Tarot, water represents the emotions. I thought this practice would be about building physical resilience but it's mainly been about getting to know myself under stress. You really see all the patterns coming up and out.

ANYWAY. I really want to show off about the fact that I managed a 3 minute breath hold on day 91 (check me out!!!) And that the water is now 13.5 degrees and I'm still getting in every day. If anyone is thinking about it def start now because it's only gonna get colder and acclimatising is important. Here if u wanna talk about the cold! 🥶

📸 underwater shot by the insanely talented dreamboat that is Lucy Ridges Photography 🐚

tomorrow at 9.14pm we have a (super) NEW MOON in SCORPIO 🌙

(super means that the energy is intensified as the moon is closer to the earth)

scorpio represents the cycle of transformation; summoning our subconscious impulses, dreams + fears out of the shadows and into plain view for us to learn from/release/understand better/remember

Once we get a better glimpse of ourselves we have *choice* - stay the same or do things differently?

on this new moon I'll be asking this question - what would my dreams look like if I could release fear, doubt + limitations from their making?

notice any resistance that comes up if you decide to ponder this for yourself - those are the thoughts and feelings that will enlighten you as to what could be holding your vision back. try challenging them a little, poke around at those ideas and see if they have a right to stick around in your body and mind. be gentle with yourself, don't give yourself s**t if you find hard-core patterns, they might have been protecting you at a time when you needed that ♡ now it could be time to let them go 🦋

during the new moon it's common to feel tired, drained + depleted of energy so this is a good time to take extra care of yourself, rest lots, reflect and dream up some beautiful s**t for the future.

action comes later, for now, get cosy and daydreamy.

if a tarot reading feels right at this time I have spaces free all day Thursday to work with this energy 💫 online or by the fire 🔥

email [email protected] or DM to book 🔮

must be the season of the witch ⚡🔮