19/02/2020
We live in a world that constantly, constantly tells us to change. To improve. To get better. Transform yourself; get thinner, more beautiful, more successful. We should be stronger, fitter, continue to climb the ladder, make more money. Be a better mother, a better father, a better leader, a better person...
It’s exhausting; the idea that there is always something to fix. Even when I improve on one area of my life, there is always something else that could do with some polishing. I could tone my body, advance my yoga practice, become a better parent, scale my business...
At times, I find myself so immersed in improving different areas of my life that when I hit a milestone - when I actually improve on something that I’ve been wanting to change - I barely even notice. I just move on to the next thing because, honestly... It’s never good enough.
I will never be good enough. I have to remind myself, again and again: when I look out at the world from that place of not - enoughness; when fundamentally, deep inside, I feel unworthy... It will never matter how in shape I am or how much money I make or how good of a teacher/mother/friend/daughter I am, I’ll always feel like there is something wrong with me.
And that in those moments, what actually needs improving - what needs healing - is not my body or my life situation. It’s my heart.
The only way out of a loop of lack is to bring yourself back home to you.
Our gut reaction is to work harder, to try and improve faster, when what we need in those moments is to simply let ourselves be. To go from "how can I change my body right now because don’t like what I see in the mirror” to “how can I change these negative thoughts - and move toward accepting myself the way I am?"
Try looking inward instead of outward. Soften, instead of tensing up. Choose your feeling body over your thinking mind. Give yourself as many chances as you can in a day to practice self-compassion so that you can marvel a little more over the beauty that you are already bringing to this world ✨
Because the truth is that in this moment and in every moment, you *are* enough the way you are...
