08/30/2026
12 years 🙅♀️🍷
Twelve years ago, I stopped drinking.
I have been wracking my brain trying to select a Tarot card whose energy best matches this past year of sobriety and so much more for me.
I reflected back to 2021 (year 7 in recovery.) I had done enough readings to see a mental health crisis emerging in so many of my Tarot clients' lives. Most people were enduring a deluge of tragedy that kept my heart, too, in constant ache. Occasionally, it even rendered me bedridden. More than ever before, I sat with people who shared stories of family estrangement, serious illness, addiction, su***de, and unimaginable losses.
I began to question whether my readings were capable of offering anything of substance in the face of such vast pain.
So when a family member called while in the throes of suicidal intent, I knew it was time to get my counselling education.
I asked my Creator to "carve me out" into the human I needed to become for this work. I committed to do whatever it took, no matter how challenging.
I knew I REQUIRED an expansion to my emotional metabolism. I needed to be able to sit in the hailstorm of people's trials without imploding beneath the weight of them.
And this year, like magic, my emotional capacity renovated itself. Some things that helped:
❤️Getting a new sponsor and taking on a new sponsee
❤️ My counselling internship this winter, including su***de intervention training
❤️ Finding a new therapist and doing EMDR and parts work
❤️ Being loved so well by my circle
And the rest? The rest is a magic and an alchemy I cannot explain.
I used to think recovery was about removing the poisons from my life. But the more years that pass, the more it seems to me that recovery can also be a springboard to endless becoming. So, entering this 12th year, I choose The Magician Card as my North Star. I want to keep gathering and blending tools. I want to greet my clients with love, empathy, skill, and steadiness.
And then I want to stand back in awe as as Creator continues to reconfigure my mind and spirit in ways I could never orchestrate or fully understand.
If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, please reach out or lean in. We can recover. 🪄
