05/12/2016
After years of dreaming, saving, planning and sacrificing, you would of thought that living your dream would hold no barriers. It was never going to be easy. Not many people think about crossing Australia. Even less give it a go. I have experienced the ultimate of highs, overcome mighty high and long hills, met the most beautiful people, backed up by a country that has a landscape that really is awe inspiring.
I have a real desire in life to help others. It may come with crazy ideas, but that’s a part of who I am. I would rather try and find out if it’s possible than not try at all. I immigrated to Australia after never leaving Europe.
I found my breaking point during what I wanted to achieve. Being around people is what makes me tick. It’s what makes me happy. It’s hard to put into words what my 500Ks felt like. What you see. What you experience. What goes through your head. What the daily routine is. So much of it isn’t what I expected and would be hard to verbalise. You can adapt and embrace lots of it. But if your head isn’t capable of not just churning out the Kms day after day, but ensuring you’re set up and body isn’t slowly being depleted and dealing with brain miles through thinking - you’re never going to achieve what’s in front of you.
Call it what you want and unfortunately feel what you need. I’m not sorry for giving a go and trying to reach the potential of what I saw in the run, but I am sorry to friends that have helped and encouraged me. I tried and wished it was more. I had a daily battle that I couldn’t continue with. The battle was being on my own. I haven’t stopped wanting to cross Australia, I just know that this way isn’t what works for me.
I visualised getting half way, and the biggest incentive – seeing friends in Perth. It wasn’t enough to pull/push me across the Nullabor.
Thank you to all those that sent me positive messages and thoughts during the run. They honestly got me through so many Kms. To those that put so much effort in behind the scenes and to friends who received the daily vent of whinging. It worked, but battle was to be lost within me.
Thank you for being on this journey